nabila-writer of her dreams...

2011-11-27T17:29:00.002+08:00

Mood: Bored

Whats up everyone?! haha~ okay..im so bored now! after O levels is over(thank god~) and after prom(awesome!) and after RED CAMP 8(Spartans ahwoo!), there really is nothing for me to do~ :( so im rotting at home..haish..miss my friends.. all of them are working. im not starting anytime soon~ :(

today, spent a whole day listening to songs~ gosh. who knows that life will be so boring after O levels~ :( i sooo need something to do! :o but what?!

okay..going to mum's house to pass her camera. so gtg~ haish.. just to get out of this house, im personally sending the camera to her house? :o okay.. see ya!

Listening to music: Lonely by 2NE1. :D

2011-10-11T22:28:00.003+08:00

Mood: Slightly Pissed

hey there. long time since i've blogged. just need to let off some steam.

Im seriously feeling fcked up over what others are thinking. im not even doing anything to them yet they must bitch about me. argh. and why should i advice ppl when they asked? i shouldn't have adviced anything cos they won't listen anyway. -.-" I am just me. my influencing skills are not great so why worry that im a bad influence? anyone with self discipline can restrain from lazying ard with me whut?!

pissed off and i have no idea why. they are my fcking friends sia?! as in i treat them as my close friends but i don't know now.. im unsure of our friendship. fck.

i have no idea already. just feeling sad about it. not even pissed at all. just upset. they can tell me where i am wrong whut. haish, feel like crying. :( i thought i finally found real friends. looks like im wrong again.

and im very disappointed with chris. i don't think i would like such a friend. sick.

Listening to music: I Don't Know by Mblaq

2011-07-08T14:24:00.002+08:00

Mood: HOT

okay..it ain't exactly the mood. just the weather~ :D going crazy because its FRIDAY~ :D go home early and gonna slack for awhile.. :D its been a long time since i played blackshot. hmm.. should i play today? keke~ XD i think im really going abit high! :D okay..i better go off now. wahh~ off to play blackshot~ XD

Listening to music: You've fallen for me by yonghwa~ :P

2011-07-06T16:14:00.003+08:00

Mood: :/

Abit unwell. its been a long time since i blogged. today have been a little weird. i was super high in the morning and at the end of school, which was poa, i just...shut off. no idea why.. didn't feel like speaking to anyone. Life was okay. just the O levels coming thing is freaking scary. maybe im freaking out? and me seeing my friends make decisions that seemed wrong to me is hard.. i care about my friends alot yet these kind of things.. they can't be persuaded. let's just say they may probably understand my intentions after its too late.. :( haish. i seriously got to study. fck poa and humanities.

I realised i've changed alot since secondary one. i have become more confident? :D hehe~ but i think there are lots of things to improve on. :D

Listening to music: Sungha Jung's channel :)

2011-04-03T13:37:00.002+08:00

Mood: Sweaty~

Recently, getting so stressed over O levels and bloody Chinese dance~ cos its frustrating to be doing something i hate.. :( going for tuition soon~ didn't finish my hmwk~ but since when did i finsh one before? -.-" i feel so excited for graduation. so that i can work and earn money~ then i can finally pay for dance lessons~ i'll learn with xinyi and have lots of fun with nerissa too~ :D and i'll battle with max once im finally qualified to do so~ :P

okay, my entries have been short~ and doesn't make sense. but then, my life doesn't exactly makes sense yet~ :D so i'll go for tuition now~ :D buhbye~

Listening to music: banmal song by yongseo couple~

2011-01-29T23:14:00.003+08:00

Mood: tired.

Gosh! the weather is crazy recently! :P everyone has been sick! :( poor us~ haha! anyway, we're breathing the same air as super junior!! :P im in bugis and they are at marina~ :( so near yet so far! so sad~ nvm!

change topic! went out with sharon, chris and yeobo today~ :D keke~ watched the GREEN HORNET! kya! :P jay chou is hilarious!! he abit fatter lurh but still okay~ his English totally cracked me up! :P the Green hornet is STUPID IMMATURE IDIOT~ as in in the show lurh~
but he was really irritating! :P love the CAR!! BLACK BEAUTY!! :D SO FREAKING COOL! :DD damn it~

and IM 16!!! been 16 for almost a week lurh~ :D love this year's birthday~ :D thanks to everyone who wished and contribute to our birthday~ (meaning mine and yeobo~) keke~ thanks to all who gave us presents too! love yeobo's present! so cute! of course im abit biased towards my yeobo~ :d ahh!! i still want that holga 135 tlr!! :P :( after O LEVELS!! I'll ean money and buy that freaking camera!! :P

CHRIS!! You idiot! BAKA! :P hou lian pi! rawr! how could u treat us?! :) haha.. the movie ticket, all FOUR of us, were pid by stupid chris! he don't let us pay back! :( love his generosity but at least accept HALF of our money mah! :D after yeobo left, don't know why we went CRAZY~ actually is our usual character but we don't show it THAT much~ :D

okayokay~ gtg~ SLEEP! :D night! I WANT GO MARINA! :P

Listening to music: Super Junior - Boom Boom

2011-01-26T22:05:00.003+08:00

Mood: Exhausted as usual

Gosh. Biology SPA is coming up!! :( So scary~ today, while doing the training, my neck was breaking! :P okay, i got like history essay and ss essay but i could not do them because i got to finish my podcast! :O so got to rush them out tomorrow~

going to sleep now. like finally! :D goodnight~ Sec 4 life is not even called life. -.-"

Listening to music: The Beginning by SNSD

2010-12-13T21:59:00.003+08:00

Mood: Quite happy

Happy? because my computer is fixed! finally! its been a long time since my computer was spoiled~ anyway, got a few plans for the last week of hols~ going out with my wifey and dardar soon~ on christmas.. then having a party on 29th~ then im thinking of going out with my malay clique on the 31st.. since its the last day of the year~ i will like to spend the day with the people who knows me the longest~ ((:

Recently, like was a bit boring.. Kpop doesn't seemed to be the most important thing anymore~ its more of my friends. but im still crazily in love with kpop~ because the music just make me dance without me knowing~(: i got a tumblr account but im intending to make it my private lair~ (:

okayokay~ i gtg.. i need to update my tumblr and reinstall all my past programs because i upgraded my computer recently after repairing it. (: goodnight peeps! (:

Listening to music: I'll Be Back by 2PM! (:

2010-10-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

Mood: mad

wahh. today was super duper fun!!! ((: muahaha.. elisha, we are so good!! (: muahahah..anyway, today went from bp to bugis then to jurong point then to bukit timah! -.-"

played pool~ so fun.. but tiring maan~ but me and elisha improved~ ((: keke.. at first, since i so long nvr play le, my skill degraded by so many levels.! ((: hehe..

and friday was ((: except for one thing. the fcking teacher called my mum without finding out the truth! )): stupid! on monday im so going to be on the warpath.. i wnt be happy at all that day! well, except for the morning event~ (: free food bansai!!

okay.. exams are cmi. friends.. im seriously doubting thath they deserved to be called friends. and family.. well. she's not my family. she's a total faggot! )): eally fm man.. cca sucks to the core! stupid teachers!

okay im going to shower now.. in a bad mood. my cute and most darling shinee got hurt too! )): stupid things just tlike to come my way.

Listening to music: hello. hello~

2010-10-10T15:15:00.002+08:00

Mood: sian diao

DYING!! mugging like crazy for two weeks le.. )): chemistry so tough.. i want die le lah!! ((: amaths is going to be tough and so will be chemistry exam.. im totally on the verge of stress takeover because the whole of next week got exams! every day have TWO papers... )):

Im still coping because of dance but i still don't have the exam feeling~ super slack but still must mug to make sure i get the results i want.. (:

im totally addicted to 2NE1's new album and LOVE breath by Beast and Hello by shinee~ ((: my bias finally have singing parts~ ^^ i love kpop~ very unique and cool~

okay~ got some tips from mojo jojo on how to study biology so going to mug again~ SOON~ ^^

Listening to music: bingeul bingeul bingeul~ ((:

2010-09-16T11:45:00.002+08:00

Mood: Super Hyper though my body is exhausted~ -.-"

Lizhen is super CUTEEE!! keke.. damn cute ah~ ((: anyway, yesterday was super fun!! but very tired. we reached home at 1.30 AM in the morning! -.-" then have to wake up early for school.. ): and my sis pissed me off today.. like wtf?! im not going to talk about it like usual but i was super upset this morning~

And I love kpop ttm.. so don't question my love for it. i may be crazy over dance and kpop but i still have a life.. yeah/ so don't anti me for what i love and what u don't bother about. ((:

Listening to music: So big~ R** ((: hehee..

2010-09-14T11:21:00.003+08:00

Mood: Super Excited!!! and emo afterwards

I cannot wait for tomorrow!! yay! going universal studios! hope david will go because he quite fun! ((: and im now in school. MT lesson~ doing letter by typing! -.-" hehe.. and tony an is back from army!! ((: woohoo.. okay enough of kpop. i don't feel like talking about it. the more i talk the more i'll be unhappy. i don't wanna change my seats on class!! )): im perfectly happy with my current position! ): anyway, i think im getting depressed and lonely each day.. )): its like there's nobody to talk my inner self with. ppl may think that im always happy and crazy but in actual fact, im quite lonely~ ): nobody to talk to at home about heart matters and school friends seemed like they would not be able to understand my feelings. My life ain't as smooth as ppl thought but whoose life is? i just want a companion who could lend me a listening ear but even that is hard to find. )):

and i cried yesterday. weird mood swings im getting lately. )): all with whats going on. i can't even have the determination to study or do homework. im totally lagging behind in homework and everything. )): rawr.. thats why i can count on my blog. ((:

Listening to music: Rang wo zhao gu ni~

2010-09-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

Mood: Bored

Don't feel like sleeping yet.. though i have school tmrw~ ):

Life seemed so crappy recently..Mum abit overreact with so many things~ she took my ipod away and threaten to cut sis hp line for trivial reasons! firstly, my ipod is ex.. IKNOWOKAY!! so mum bought me an ipod cover to prevent it from scratches! but, you can't forever protect it right? furthermore, an ipod is bought for me to listen to music.. and the damn cover is preventing the earpiece from being plucked in! i can't listen to my music that way.. so i took off the damn cover and guess what? scratches..~ as if the world had ended, mum goes on a lecture.. in PUBLIC and i was really fed up because i was alrdy in a bad mood that day.. nvm..

then this morning, she screamed at sis.. for what?! for not picking up her hp yesterday.. sis and i both have a habit when we're out, to put out hps in our bag and leave it as it is.. cos we dnt wanna be disturbed. no matter how sis explain that she tried to call back, mum just dnt wanna listen! nvm.. i dnt wanna talk about it.. then she screamed at me too while crossing the damn road.. so basically, life has been crappy!

and damn lao shi! don't let shiteng quit dance.. and scold her somemore. crap shit! shiteng alrdy so upset alrdy.. im super fed up too.. why the hell must you force somebody to participate in smth she don't like? fcked up sia.. i myself am forced into things i hate. chinese dance is one of them! i wanna dance but mum says that it will not be a stable job.. i was thinking, so what?! i wanna have a job that i love and enjoys doing, but apparently, money still matters. )): i wanna quit chinese dance too becos it just isn't me! it isn't what i want.. )): but looking at shiteng, i wonder if i can even get away from this cca?! )): argh..

*sighs.. long deep sigh.. i just wanna listen to music and dance for awhile.. get myself tired but yet happy.. but looks like it ain't possible until i get my own life..

anyway, im going to enjoy my peaceful night.. only sis and me at home so yeah.. some peace yo~ ((:

Listening to music: all is fair in love~ by stevie wonder!~ ((:
05/09/10

2010-08-07T23:58:00.003+08:00

Mood: Damn HOT

wahh!!! the yog thing was so COOL~~~ but some parts are boring! like that flag thingy~haish.. anyway, today had lots of fun with everyone! though i was truly bored and emo at some parts.. anyway, we cannot post the pics on facebook!! )): like wth??! sucky man~

now want to see if there's any show to watch~ then i need to sleep.. tonight, I MUST sleep with the aircon on! (: I LOVE crazy by kan mi yeon now!!! it kept playing into my mind! ((: okay..goodnight everyone!! (:

Listening to music: ileon naega neomu neomuna silh-eunda~

7/08/10

2010-07-24T20:26:00.002+08:00

Mood: So-so~

Just had a wonderful dinner~ pasta~ new recipe! ((: anyway, why is the chem homework so sucky??! and ms sha even took the notes back! )): argh~ and National day is just around the corner! i saw the fireworks just now. There was a rehearsal.. It was so cool!! ((: and very pretty~

YOG is also around the corner! YOG + fasting month + exams! )): and the audition is also coming soon!! )): today's post seemed so panicky~ ((:

I just cannot wait for end of year!! then im definitely going to relaz for at least a whole week bfore preparing for the O levels!! AHH!! scary~ ((:

I LOVE MINHO!! ((: kekeke~~ he is really getting better at everything! (: not to mention taemin! he is so damn hot! his dance moves are just slick! how i wish i can be a dancer.. but it is kinda impossible.. ): since 3 years ago, dancing was all i wanted. well and also knowledge and a degree..its possible for me as long as i worked hard in studying but the sad thing is dancing...it helps when i start from young..but im already 15yrs old..so its quite saddening..)):

anyway, gonna log out now.. going to surf the net.. surf through some blogshops maybe~ byebye!! ((:

Listening to music: bust your windows~
24/07/10

2010-06-22T11:48:00.002+08:00

Mood: Dong~~

Im totally speechless! The showcase was like the first and the best showcase I've been to!! Everything was ...... My ears felt like bursting.. Each time I thought of yesterday, my heart beats very fast.. Gosh..can u believe it??!! My camera DIED ON ME! -.-" So there are totally less than TEN pics! )): NVM~ can't wait for ukiss new single~ ((: Okay..I should stop talking about ukiss.. If not, I will die from excessive spazzing~ keke.. ^^ and i made new friends~~ ((: AND.. I LOVE FANGWEI!! Hyung, Saranghae!! ((: She's a girl btw.. don't be mistaken..we just treat each other as guys cos we are kinda like them.. -.-" Haagen Dazz~~~Man..the ice cream is *faints.. Plain delicious!! (:

Btw, another random thing.. I THOUGHT OF HOW TO CHOREOGRAPH FOR THE RAP PARTS IN HARU HARU!!! YAY! hahhaah..Mainly copyrighted stuff.. I copied from Rain, super junior, after school, 4minute, snsd... Im totally a copyrightist(if there is such a word) ((: anyway, i thinkits okay since its only one move from each song.. and i didn't copy entirely.. just alittle part..then change the original tempo to suit haru haru.. ((:

Okay..Im officially a JD Relic fan*.. sorta.. cos his covers are very nice.. Especially hip song.. ahh~ its just great.. oh man.. so sad that rain is leaving for army.. )): oh man..they shoud just kiss!! oops.. sorry random.. talking abt ukiss.. ahh~ okay.. geez! i should stop being so random.. -.-" i keep telling myself to stop doing smth but i will still continue.. lols.. -.-" okay.. i got to go~ not because somebody wanna use the com.. but i wanna work on my story.. looks like i might do a collab with jo turtle~ ((: see ya around~

Listening to music: Super Girl cover by JD Relic

2010-06-16T22:05:00.002+08:00

Mood: Happy~

Heyhey!! im back! yesterday i went to east coast for class outing.. though only 11 ppl came, excluding jun jie, it was totally fun.. just nice..there were 5 girls and 6 guys. ((: it was totally fun.. my butt still hurts from riding the bike to and fro.. *wince. anyway, reached home at ard 11.45? yeah..called wu yuan cos he msg me.. ahh!! my hp totally GG! )): so nobody can call me. i can see msgs but no calls! and i cannot reply too. ): nvm, don't bother about these unhappy stuff. (: Yesterday, we totally overshot our bus stops. first, on the way to east coast, we overshot! then on the way from east coast, we overshot again.. all the way to kallang!! -.-" haha..okay, overall its VERY fun! i think we should be careful.. not to anger wu yuan! muahaha... biting butts?! its stuck in my head.. haha.. -.-" cannot wait for ystdy's trip pics to come out!! (: okay2..lets talk about something else.

UKISS!!!! AHH!! hehe.. going to the showcase.. *do a little dance! ((: so happy cos im going with fw hyung! ((: my cute kind hyung. (: and.. danson tang was totally ...(speechless) the song is not bad since AMBEr is in the song.. but.. i don't like it that he seemed to have the korean style too.. ): ah..nvm.. at least the song is okay.. (: and Jay's cover of billionaire was cool.. ((:

okay2.. GTG! ): my sis wanna use and i wanna play game. keke.. im a kid totally! i wonder when i will grow up! although im the oldest in the class. RAWR~ ((:keke.. byebye! (: watching karate kid TMRW!! ((: and that wuyuan alrdy watched it. -.-" and Ateam too. -.-"' so lucky lah he.. *shakes head.. clears head.. then wave byebye! -.-"

Listening to music: I say I'm back! oh oh oh~

2010-05-20T20:32:00.002+08:00

Mood: Pissed..

You don't wanna know the reason.. Its pretty messed up.. I hate this kind of thing..
Anyway, dongsaeng was hit by a van today.. I hope he's alright!! )): I was shock at that time.. Rest well Dongsaeng!! ((: Don't come to school tmrw.. ((:

I think mr seet is gonna launch into a long talk about jaywalking.. lol!! -.-" gosh..I cannot take it anymore..gtg.. SLEEP!! ((: 4minute's new songs are nice!! ((:

Listening to music: 2 different tears...

2010-05-12T12:40:00.002+08:00

Mood: Erm.. sian?

today's chemistry was so shocking! i didn't finish the paper! er..i think this mye, almost every paper i did not finish.. haish.. anyway, bonama rocks.. like ahh!! the dance was cool.. it wud have been perfect if all 13 members were in it though..miss them.. haish~ anywaym saw shi hao's dance battle 2 days ago..one word: COOL! haha.. though not as intense as AOM's battle~ ((:

cannot wait for mblaq's new single to come out..the teaser looks damn cool.. seungho beating joonie..joonie in love??!! ((: bad boy style! I LIKE! ((: keke..

and... i love this very nice shoes!! i want!! ((: too bad i cannot buy it..i also don't know where to buy!! TT_TT

anyway, gtg..byebye!! goodluck for bio!! wahh!!

Listening to music: mysteric, mysteric, molla molla~~ na nananananana~~~

2010-05-08T12:07:00.002+08:00

Mood: High~~

U know, i kinda wish i cut my hair a little shorter..but there's syf next year~ argh.. Next YEAR! anyway, i don't understand nu abo when it came out.. but now the tune is damn catchy!! it just keeps playing in my mind!! ((:
keke~~

and Mmixes is a genius!! ((: He rock to the core~ his remixes are just BANG! awesome!!

talking about awesome, history was just ... I studied Stalin and HTILER came out.. -.-"
stupid man~ and SS sucks.. i don't know anything.. )):

anyway, got to study MATHS~~byebye~~

2010-04-21T19:28:00.002+08:00

Mood: High like siao~

KYA!!! I cannot keep this anymore. Anyway, im sure everyone knows already! ((: AHHHH!!!! JAY IS COMING BACK!! KYA !!! MY LEADJA!!! AS A MOVIE ACTOR!! AS A DANCER!!! WAHH!!!! IM GOING CRAZY!!!! DON'T STOP, CAN'T STOP!!! AHH!!! *FAINTS~

okay~ im seriously out of my mind.. to those waiting for dance pics and teacher's email, im so sorry! my hp is not with me currently so pls wait patiently or ask those i alrdy told.thanks!

((: LEADJA IS COMING BACK~~Okay~ man, my urge to learn breakdance still haven't fade.. im doomed~ )): okay, gtg..religious class~ byebye!! MYE COMING!! DIE!! -.-"

Listening to music: chitty chitty bang bang~~ by hyori unnie!!!

2010-04-15T18:29:00.002+08:00

Mood: Lol~~

Today was daebakk.. im sure everyone in my school is now talking abt the fire! haha.. do you know that a real fire actually happened??! while i was dissecting a FROG!!! -.-" the whole general office, it lab and conference room was smoky.. it sting your throat man~
Its just so freaking funny!! Mrs Yip is the first to dump her things in her car and drive off!! ((: keke~~

Now watching HB~~ wahh!! its ep 11 alrdy~ and im watching cinderella's sister.. nice!! ((: gt my ok daeri!! kya!!!

anyway, got to go religious class alrdy..argh~ i don't feel like it at the moment but what can i do?~ ):

byebye!! ((:

Listening to music: you better run, run, run, run~~

2010-04-14T18:35:00.003+08:00

Mood: Pissed.

It's like I'm not even part of them anymore~ How could they just throw me aside??! nvm! i don't want to talk abt it. I think someday, im gonna get sickness or smth for keeping everything to myself.. argh!

Anyway, im freaking tired.. today gt double math, double eng, MT, and bloody poa~ haish~ i feel like running away. Can anybody transport me away? )):

Time flies~
But you never returned to me.
In fact, you leave me further adrift~
My mind cannot keep quiet. Nor my life~
Everyone around me is bit*hing about me.
My close friends and I are no longer close because of the class difference.
My close ones are off to another favourite~
When will life be normal?
As in will life Ever be normal?
Exams are coming~
Yet I'm not prepared.
Not that I don't want to but who in this world likes to study?
And for those like me, even if we studied, who would believe?
Will they believe that you tried your best or you simply cannot go any further?
Teachers, parents, siblings, peers, government..
Everywhere from every corner.
All they know is to pressurize and demand but they didn't think.
The society is highly competitive. Everyone is fighting for good grades,
be it for themselves or for their family.
But where had the fun and interest in studying go to?
The older generation had fun.
The younger generation suffered. Is this fair?
The owner merely cares about his face. Did he care about us?
Yes, we used the word care. But at our age, do anybody know the word care?
Brotherhood, sisterhood, best friends and maybe(if you're on the wrong side) your fellow gang members.
Do you know if they genuinely care about you? I don't know.
But i feel like everything is crap now. It ain't my business afterall.
So why do I feel like everything and everyone is aiming at me?
Optimistic, i can be. High, i can be. But happy? Is it possible~?

Listening to music: there's no one no one no one no one no one no one~~

2010-04-09T21:48:00.002+08:00

Mood: abit pissed

What has it got to do? even if age is different, if somebody pissed you off, won't you be angry too?! and then it all appears to be my fault. shit happens but this is way too much! ):

anyway, my moods are being lifted up again as usual by my sweet and cute minho and yoogeunie~~((: keke~ so sad now that hello baby is over~ )): but nvm, still got idol army, and ukiss vampire and raising idols!! ((:

do i have to repeat this? dance is my everything!! ((: sad that i could not have proper training. I really want to learn. ): especially breakdance.. recently, i just want to learn breakdance. but argh!! first i need to lose weight and gain muscles.. ): which is super hard!! ((:

and im think lee min ho is cute!! omg! am i really saying this?? hehe.. bcos i just watched his new show. AHH!! spazzing~ it was awesome! lee min ho is so cute!! i guess he is a little alike with my minho~ keke~ great body and amazing smile~ (:

okay~ i gtg now..did i mention i watched god until finish alrdy? hehe.. im getting memory probs.. its the best so far!! ((: i love chandu! and the main guy of cos.. they all rock! see ya ard.. and damn i haven't do my hist homework.. what am i gonna do bout my studies man~?

Listening to music: zen me ban~~

2010-03-17T19:48:00.002+08:00

Mood: Damn high

All thanks to Jungmo.. seriously! that guy is a damn hot and talented guitarist! ((: Im loving him!!

oh..and Minho oppa.. Heard you got injured in DT today. Rest well okay!! ((:

Listening to music: Blaze away~

2010-03-10T20:44:00.004+08:00

Mood: lols..

Haish~~ Damn sian.. i really want to go to the malaysia thing. and also OBS!! argh! the school only allow the shooting members to freely like choose like that. so bad..)): nvm.. ((: anyway, don't sue me!! What's a birthday party without pictures? keke~~

Listening to music: Niga mipda~~

2010-03-06T18:58:00.004+08:00

Mood: ((: ^^

I think im crazy!! okay, ystdy i decided that even if shinee is coming, im not going to care nor see them. First, I've no money! then no time! )): And i scared of those crazy fans.. -.-" haha.anyway, went to body world ystdy with jiapeng, aneesha, cher and xinting..it was crazy! the body world was very interesting. then we play at the playground. keke~~ then spend some time at mac, then the shop beside science center. after that go science center. damn fun!! but when we left it was still early. only 8pm.. sian. don't want go home.. so we siao2 walk to jurong east mrt station and go lot 1. walk2 and go arcade then go home. ((: damn fun. I think i went crazy like SUPER DUPER crazy! haha.. the girls all envious of my ermhum!! only they knows! haha.. It was damn fun.

Today gt YCM in school. Walao..Ms chang came when going 11 am but we all arrived at 9am. -.-" but it was great fun. then go home change shirt. cos go discuss abt the bloody yog thingy.. they talk alot eh!! espec. Tim! ask weird, unnessary questions! haish.. then go play pool with howard, jing xuan, xin yi, marcus and jun jie. wahh.. i damn noob or!! then marcus damn pro lah.. keep winning.. howard too. xinyi and jun jie today damn suey.. haha.. ((: okay.. i'll post the pics and vids of todays and ystdy's events. its little but keke~~ ((:

Fat's forfeit failed!! ((:

4 forfeits!

lols.. -.-" i gtg.. playing online pool. -.-" all howard's fault. now keep playing pool. ((:

Listening to music: hasta la vista~~

2010-03-02T21:07:00.001+08:00

Mood: Tired, Sad

The conference is out. well, at least for the first part. Khottests are too angry. Too angry that they can't stay calm and make rational comments. My eyes are blurring. Why can't they stay calm? Why can't they understand that the 6 members are stuck in between?I cannot take by the Khottests sides. Because, they are hurting the boys. No matter what, hurting the boys is wrong. Its like hurting J too. )):

No matter what happens,
I will always stand by you and your brothers.
Though unable to reunite,
our hearts will be by each of you no matter where.

Hyukkie, well? Don't stress your self up. endure it okay? saranghae~~ (:

Song: Let you go by TRAX ft Heechul (Live perf.)

2010-02-15T20:34:00.002+08:00

Mood: i don't wanna go back school~~ lalala..

haha..i like this holiday. (: okay, today went to east coast. Many people but found a place to sit. ((: ahh!! im badly sunburnt!! omg!! thank god my face isn't.. but other places that i've exposed were sunburnt. :0 cos i was wearing just a tank top and shorts. ahh~~ i hope it won't peel. Then go Changi general hospital cos one of my auntie kena stroke. (i think) poor her. then go tekka eat. then go home. ((:

anyway, tomorrow im going swimming in the morn, then go airport.. ((: gtg..sis wanna use.
((: Love those who read my blog!! lols!! -.-" jkjk.. Love everyone! ((:

Listening to music: oh oh oh oh opparul saranghae~~

2010-02-14T23:16:00.002+08:00

Mood: Laughing like siao

((: Today my family crazy alrdy! ((: Anyway, Happy New Year to everyone!! ((:

today's dinner was hilarious. Okay, so im sleeping over at my mum's house at bugis. then, we ate our dinner at an indian shop nearby. Then we knew its sorta a hangout for prostitutes and men full of lust. No offence to anybody out there. Just relating my story! -.-" okay, so we talk about those indian prostitutes, (Im not racist!) then we just kept making jokes becos the way they flirt and smile like perverts..then eventually we timed how long they did IT cos there are rooms for rent just in front of us. ((: Its 15 MINUTES for one customer and damn ex! its $50! true! we saw them handing money and talking and stuff.. Indian men are lining up, hanging ard to find these women. Gosh! It was just so hilarious. My sister said under her breath after one man walked past our table, " I'm not one of them. don't look at me!" haha.I practically went crazy listening to my sis and mum's jokes. Damn funny. We sat there for 1hr plus just observing and all. ((: thn, when we reached home, we watched kumar drag queen. hilarious! ((:

Warning: watch with an open mind.

Cannot watch? sign up an account and put urself as 90-ers. ((:
Okay, i love Minho so much now!! totally so cute, handsome, caring, kids lover!! ((: ahh!! lols..
Fan-mode! better go b4 i start talking abt Minho. ((: then, u'll hear no end from me. Anyway, i changed my hp no. email me if u want it. (only for Friends!) mere acquaintances or strangers, i wnt reply u even if u ask.)

bye everbody! have a happy NEW YEAR!! ((:
Listening to music: Bingeul Bingeul Bingeul Bingeul~~

2010-02-06T20:55:00.002+08:00

Mood: Exhausted

Just finished running with jp. her stamina damn good lah~ ((:

okay, my blog is DEAD! ((: haha..Im too busy nowadays. Didn't even bother to watch MB or MC or even INKI!! )): today, went to library with fangwei. Woah~ the place damn nice to study man.. my math managed to finish all thanks to her! cos i forgot how to do or don't really know how to do..

then met jiapeng. went to jurong point~~ ((: saw JOE CHENG!! OMG!! damn hot!! ahh!! cos he had a fansign and we just coincidentally came across it. woah~ ahh!! i think i like him even more now. ((: gosh..even heard him talk so friendly!! ((: ahh!! okay..going crazy~~

bingeul bingeul bingeul~~ love it!! ((: going to eat now! ((:
Listening to music: naega gureoke man man hani~~ REMIX!! ((:

2010-01-30T23:56:00.002+08:00

Mood: Pissed.

I don't wanna talk abt it. At mum's house. Fcking pissed now. Luckily i got some shows to cheer me up. Trying to avoid SHINee related shows. If not, i think i will break down. )): T_T

Anyway, i bought this ver cute pair of socks. I know i said i want to avoid shinee related but its just too cute! ((: bought Minho sockie~

As Ummai request, im gonna put the key starking cut! ((: Its been a long time since i post vids. ((:

Okay~ I know~ Keys a fierce bitch. So is Kwonnie. ((: Love Minho like till forever~~ ((:
Gdnight everyone! i want to soothe my aching heart now. *on the verge of crying~
)):

Listening to music: no love..no more..

2010-01-04T19:18:00.003+08:00

Mood: Totally happy!!

My eyes are tired because i only slept 3 hrs yesterday~ )): Don't know why I cannot sleep the moment I wake up at 3AM. ((: I totally love my blog song! ((:

Today, school was tiring. though its only the first day, it was already tiring. Being Sec 3 is definitely so different. ): anyway, nothing can stop me from watching these cute fancams!! ((:
*fangirl mode~*

I seriously LOVE ONEW!! And Minho! and Taeminnie!! And Key! And Jonghyun! I love SHINee!!! ((:
I totally lmao at the last vid! And Taeminnie actually fell! -.-" So CUTE!! ((:

Listening to music: I wanna gosship girl~~ ((:

2010-01-03T13:38:00.003+08:00

Mood: ):

Its already a new year and you're still not here~

When will we ever see you again?

Though its a new year, I'm still stuck in the past.

Stuck in the days where you are still smiling, laughing and hanging out with your brothers.

All may have move on but we still hope that one day, you will return~

Its 2010, will good memories of you fade? I don't think so.

What about negative memories about you? I hope so.

We are waiting for you~

Listening to music: Gita ri daga, chil chinda~

My Leadja~

2010-01-01T17:52:00.002+08:00

Mood: Tired

Happy Birthday Sungminnie!! ((:

I'm tired because i was laughing from just now. Oh Brothers is just so funny! Though I like Narsha in Invisible youth, i don't like it when she pulled my Minho down in the games in Oh Brothers. )): My Minho could have won!! ): Nvm~~Nicole~ I'm beginning to like her~ haha.. don't worry, i'm not les~ ((:

Okay, gtg! Use too long le~ byebye! Sungminnie oppa, happy birthday once again!! ((:

Listening to music: im genie for you boy~~

2009-12-31T20:44:00.003+08:00

Mood: Shiro!

I don't like it at all!! The trial! I don't want it to even happen! )):
Okay, i don't want to talk about it. ):

Yesterday, I didn't watch KBS Gayo Daejun. Didn't see the need. But Minho is so hot in Just dance. ((:

Now is MBC Gayo Daejun. But the thing is lagging too much..Haish~So gonna watch at tvants instead~ (: Slower but at least not so lag~ ((:

ahh~~ Juliette with Kara was cool~ Though I don't like the touchy2.haha..but i guess i don't mind? They are not mine after all.. ): And Jinwoon is so going to be jealous. cos Nicole was paired with Key! haha..

Lols~ Like I said, nothing can beat SBS. Really! Kbs and Mbc aren't that high! )):
I don't want watch anymore..

I'm watching Kara bakery! and Intimate note~ So funny~ HJL's imitation was so funny. (:

lols..said i didn't watch yet im still watching mbc..though not so much now that shinee is over. now watching 2pm and snsd stage~I think they are trying to pair yoona and taec together. and sooyoung looks so cute. woah~ 2PM performed sexy back! cool! I think there's a club feel now~
hyoyeon forever the dancing diva~yup..taec is with yoona. Confirmed! woah~ taec carried yoona in his arms! as in off her feet!

Okay I've watched ep3 of Kara bakery successfully. ((: Now i've to wait for ep4 to be subbed. Going offline now. Its 5 mins to 1st January. So wishing everyone a Happy New Year in advance! Happy New Year all my friends and teachers! Happy New Year all kpop idols! Especially SHINee oppas! and 2PM oppas! and Super Junior oppas! and Big Bang oppas! and Mblaq oppas! and Beast oppas! Okay, i know, and all oppas in SM, DSP, JYP, YG etc~~ ((: including the managers and staff. ((:

Goodnight everyone! Jal ja yo~~ ((:

Listening to music: lalalalalala~~ lalalalalala~~lalalalalala~ 1,2,3,4,5,6 do it!

2009-12-29T21:49:00.002+08:00

Mood: DAMN HIGH!!

GAYO DAEJUN!! But pissed off too..kept lagging..and there's this bloody period of time where it totally crashed! )): But now Its back!! My bro pissed me off when he return. Cos he wants me off the com~ late~ But I DON'T CARE! ((: CL and GD joint stage DAEBAK.

DAMN ITS SO NICE!!IM DAMN HIGH NOW!! ((: LOVE KPOP!!!

Okay, Spazzing with Jo over 2PM now~~ -.-" And SHINee DAMN HOT okay??! And SUJU TOO!! ((:

OMG!! Jonghyun damn hot now! AND JUNSU! Spazzing mode~
Lols..Kim Tae Woo damn nice~

Man I saw so many couples sitting together! ((: Jonghyun with Teukie~ Amber with Wookie~Onew with joonie~Minho with Hyukkie and Donghae!~ Changmin and Taewoo~ Jessica with Heechul~Shindong, hyukkie and teukie playing the camera while Chul, Younghwa and Shin Hye MCing~ So cute!! Keeps wanting to have a one shot..((:

Seung gi so hot! ((: my god!!((:

OMG!! IM SO TOUCHED! Kwonnie played Gain's role in SIGN! OMG! Key in MUZIK!! 2PM+Beast=MR. SO HOT! SO CUTE!! IM CRAZY NOW!!
OHMYGOD! SHOCK!! MINHO!! SINGING GEE!! AND TAEMINGOD! DAEBAKK! WONDER BOYS! 2PM,Beast, Mblaq, SHINee, SUJU~~ ALL DAEBAK! *FAINTS HEECHUL SO YEPPEO!! NEOMU YEPPEO! CRAZY!! *FAINTS AGAIN

Kara with their wigs~~ look kinda weird~ -.-" But the song is ever so nice. Honey~~Honey~~Honey~ ((:

Gain look weird with her hairstyle too. But the remix ver. of sign is not bad~

Im going crazy again~~2PM performed so many times in gayo daejun and they are freaking hot!! ((: Now performing Heartbeat. The intro damn scary sia~ Really like Zombies. the way they walk and all~ *Heart in my mouth*MY GOD! Was that Taec who carried Khun all the way up??! Woah~ Fx members are showing some love~ ((:
OMG! GD is having bob hair when performing Heartbreaker and gossip man!! *Faints again

IDK how many times I've faint tonight. -.-" AHH!! TAEYANG!

ONEW!! DUBU! Ahh~~ FINISHING..)): SNSD AND SUJU LAST AS EXPECTED! ((:
Woah~ SNSD looks cute in pajamas~ahh!! so cute! 2PM imitating gee~ Genie~ Sexy~ -.-"

OMG! SUJU with masks on! OMG! SUJU IS THE BEST!! woah~ EVERYBODY is imitating SUJU's sorry sorry. ((: ^^ OMG~ Sungminnie is acting so hot! And teukie! and Hyukkie! ahh!! the whole of those who came are HOT!! Changmin and Minho! side by side! and the whole of 2PM and CHangmin and Minho and Taewoo are high like siao!! ((:

Neorago! remix. -.-"Hyukkie so hot and sexy. *Faints YES! CHUL IS HERE WITH HIS SHADES! ((: AWESOME! After Neorago, they dance to sorry sorry again but this time together with SNSD!! Behind the scenes rock! GAYO DAEJUN IS DAEBAK!! ((:

Aww~~ Its over. *pouting~ )): Nvm, there's tomorrow~ ((: GOSH. Its 12AM now! From 8.55PM to 12AM! Gosh~ GAYO DAEJUN was so long~ ((: But damn nice~

Okay, gtg~ goodnight! I had a splendid night. (:

Listening to music: Gee gee gee gee baby baby~~

2009-12-27T20:15:00.002+08:00

Mood: Total Bliss~~

I'm so looking forward to next year! ((: And today, hyung is crazy over bad girl. For me, recently I'm back in the TTL craze.. -.-" ((: Season 2!! Cannot wait for HB season 2!! ((:

Finally, SK 091219 is finally subbed! ((: Idol army ep 2 is not subbed yet! )): Though the video are already out! -.-"

Woah~~Giants~ Scary~ Love Minho~ Did you know that? Haha..

Now gtg..webcaming with Jo ands want to set up ideas on our collab on the ff. ((: byebye!

Listening to music: bo peep bo peep bo peep ah! ((:

2009-12-25T18:55:00.003+08:00

Mood: Damn hyper now! ((:

I think today's the BEST CHRISTMAS I EVER HAD! ((: MUSIC BANK ROCKS!
Freaking Lag but still, Its the best Music bank ever! ((: I so cannot wait for GAYO DAEJUN!! AHH!! ((: I'm gonna watch gayo daejun even if it cost me grounding. Only until february. haha..after february, i must try my best not to anger my family especially my mom and try not to be grounded. If I did, I will go crazy. -.-"

I LOVE KPOP!! ((: I'm going to go watch my kpop now.. ((: byebye! not going to post the vids because i lazy and i too high to search for the vids..must wait for tmrw then u guys find urself..haha!! byebye!! Merry Christmas!

Listening to music: You know, that's variety, we are jewelry~~

2009-12-24T23:51:00.002+08:00

Mood: Festive mood~

Merry Christmas eve everyone!! In a few minutes, It will be Christmas!! So, Merry Christmas in advance!! ((:

Below is a video that Ting gave to her suscribers as a Christmas gift. Now, I'll present to you as a gift too. ((: Good things should be shared and for all kpop and eunteuk lovers out there, here you go! ((: Hope you guys won't be too sad over Geng's case. It's Christmas so enjoy while we can. This year was a rough year but hopefully, next year will be a good year. (: I love all of you kay??! And some presents for all SHINee lovers out there. (: Hope you guys watch all the vids. Fancams and all are very clear. (:

My Minho so cute!! ((: Suddenly turned into Magnae. Everyone was happily performing and there he was, playing happily. Ahh~~ My Minho~

At 3.44, if you see clearly, at the side, Hyukkie is so cute!! He got shocked by the party poppers. his expression is daebakk! (: So watch till the end.

Cute right?? Can you see? Haha~~ Must see carefully! Taeminnie and BlingBling so sweet~ fan service. ((:

Muahaha!! Minho so funny! He even did it with a straight face! Poor Bling Bling~~ haha. Minho-oppa! Why you so cute?! And Blingbling! why you so easy to tease??!

This is so cute!! Okay, Im biased when it comes to Minho but omg!! This was during Osan concert. He was like" Oops! Nobody saw that right?!" haha!!

haha!! the way Onew did Touch me was so funny!!and his forever CHICKEN! lols~ Love Onew Condition! ((:

lols!!Key's high pitch WOW was funny! But Blingbling's "I think It is better than that chicken" is just so hilarious! ((:

I watched the whole ep b4 but I thot I share this cut instead of the whole ep. It will overwhelm you! haha..Jonghyun's Otokea??! Because he didn't know how to describe the thing.lols

This is super identical!!

Blingbling's face is daebakk!! Very huge eyes! Wonder what made him have such an expression?

Because I watch dreamn team every week so I know of this cut. ((: Thought I share with you guys. My minho very pretty in here! ((:

And a sudden surprise! This is for Ft island lovers, especially Minhwan lovers. ((: Those who have watched Idol Show should know this. ((:

Cute right??! He kept crying, " I wanna buy this!!" referring to the lady in yellow half jacket. So cute!

LOLS!! JaeJin couldn't take it! haha~~

lols..minhwan's high pitch baby voice~~

LOLS!! Hongki and Jaejin are always like that! -.-"

Unclear but its so visible that they are fooling ard~ haha..(:

Okay thats it!! ((: Goodnight everybody! by the time I finished this post, Its past midnight. -.-" so MERRY CHRISTMAS!! Hope you guys enjoyed the videos. Its overwhelming I know but try to watch all kay? (: Saranghae!

Listening to music: sexy love (radio ver.) By Jonghyun and Jessica

2009-12-22T21:52:00.002+08:00

Mood: Laughing like mad!

OHMYGOD!! ((: I LOVE BEAST! BUT MBLAQ IS SO FUNNY TOO!! I seriously love JOONIE, SEUNGHO AND MIR!! ((: When they first debut, I thought Joonie and Seungho were the hot guy. And Mir look awfully like Hongki. Now all three are my FAVS IN MBLAQ!! I'm not betraying Beast okay!! ((:

And Im seriously loving JO!!! Kamsahamida! She really daebakk!!

Okay, I'm seriously dying of laughter now. Poor Mblaq.. Got Jung Juri as MC. Poor Seungho~~ hhaa..If I was Seungho, I would just take off my shirt. Why wear when the shirt is already in shreds? haha~~

Okay, gonna go crazy over seungho and joonie and mir and cheongdong!! and of cos, G.O. (((:

Listening to music: Chi chacha chi chacha chi chi chi~~

2009-12-21T16:11:00.002+08:00

Mood: SHOCKED!!

NONONO!! NOT MY HANGENG!! )): NO! Not my SUJU!! )): AHH!! WHY??! First DBSK, Now SUJU??! my Hankyung!! Hope what estee said is true. Its not 100% TRUE! YES! I MUST BELIEVE THAT! Untill Hankyung or SM said it officially, I would NOT Believe!

gtg..Going Orchard. ((: Cannot wait for gayo daejun!! and school to start! ((:

Listening to music: girl girl baby girl clap clap and let it go~~

2009-12-21T10:46:00.003+08:00

Mood: Glad

I'M SO GLAD! 2PM You are really my Beloved idols! Thank YOU SO MUCH! For Jay, it really is very kind of you. He deserved it but I know you guys think that no matter whether he deseved it or not, he is your leader. OMG! I LOVE YOU GUYS! ((:

YESH!! GAYO DAEJUN WILL BE A HIT!! WOOHOO! Suju is back! JOJO REMIX??! YAY! 2PM! So many remixes!! ((: Jonghyun and Kyuhyun? with Kim tae woo and Baek Ji young? Omg! Daebakk!! And special stage by SUJU, 2PM!! And SNSD and 2NE1! AHH!! IM CRAZY! Now I don't mind my Sim gone now! I got my computer~~*singing* -.-" hehe...

Okay, I'm going to watch my dream team now! Love Minho.. ((: BYEBYE!

Listening to music: Chinese song for the first time in how many months! (:

2009-12-19T20:09:00.002+08:00

Mood: What do u think?

I don't want to talk about it. My sim card is gone. G.O.N.E. Okay? So don't contact me. if you want to contact me, call my house number. But that you can call only after Monday. And Fangwei, you know how I feel right now right? Money probs.. If the flyer people call, tell me kays? I need the bloody money, partly to repay my mom and to buy the bloody mp3 player.

Yes, as usual, music is trying to make me happy now. Though I cannot use my phone, thank god I got my computer. And I don't have a bloody mp3 player. Need to save money and use my own money to buy it. Shit, i can only wait till next year. )): Nvm. Try to borrow my sis's ipod.

Dang it. And my ff is only done halfway. Sorry Jo. I was in a hurry so I post it in a haste. It's not finished so don't expect that to be part 2! I will continue edit. In a bad mood now and no privacy to continue the ff. sorry Jo. ):

got to go. Don't wanna do anything but listen to my music. goodnight.

Listening to music: Ottokajo~~

2009-12-19T16:33:00.002+08:00

Mood: ^^

Music core is not bad. ((: Key, Dubu and Minho are MCs!! ((:

As you can see, i got a new playlist. My previous playlist got some problems. )): I've been wanting to put suju sorry sorry-answer since it came out but haish.. As you can see, most of the songs are from YAB. Its damn nice!! ((: I love Hongki! and Geun suk! ((: I know I know, Im crazy~~ And I love Beast! ((: YOSEOB! ((: And i Put all Videos. i don't wanna care abt ahhem.. ((:

Okay ,wanna continue my fanfic. ((: byebye! (:

Listening to music: ring ding dong ring ding dong~~

2009-12-18T20:49:00.002+08:00

Mood: Cramp.

My mind is blank. Just. Blank. I cannot even start part 2! OMG! Im going crazy. AND Jo. Hasn't. Read. My. Fanfic. -.-"

Hyung is going gaga over seunghyun. -.- For me, today, im going gaga over Heechul~~ Lols.. Because of Loving You a Thousand Times. ((: Can't believe he slept with that bloody character called nan jung! )): But the good thing is she is no longer bloody. haha! In fact the show is getting nicer. ... Well, except for the two old woman! ):

lols.. Today MB was not bad. Key has a sticker on his cheek just like sica! ((: He wore the same thing at the handprint event. When I saw how Taeminnie's handprint turned out, I laughed like siao! Its not even a hanprint! Taeminnie SO CUTE! ((: Only Dubu's handprint turned out fine. The rest's looked funny! haha..

Okay,, i wanna do my bloody fanfic. need inspiration! byebye!

Listening to music: bo peep bo peep bo peep bo peep bo peep bo peep bo peep ahh! ((:

2009-12-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

Mood: Hiccups. )):

Got the bloody hiccups. )): Nw watching sjm on yu le bai fen bai. why is wookie so cute??!

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAEJIN BABY!! ((:
Too bad Hyung not going Ft Island thingy.. Nvm. Got other chances..I heard suju, 2PM, big band etc coming to singapore!! Idk when but I hope its end of next year or something.. If they are really coming, damn i don't care if I need to save money and not eat in school. Its worth every single saving. ((:

Okay, hyung says she is having insomnia. Rest more hyung! Saranghaeyo!

Okay, I wanna sleep le. Goodnight!

Listening to music:I wanna gosship girl~~

2009-12-16T21:06:00.002+08:00

Mood: Hyper

MELONS WAS DAEBAKK!! CONGRATS TO ALL THE WINNERS!! (((:

Thanks Taec! for saying thanks to Jay. (: Im proud of you all! Including suju, snsd, 2ne1 and all..

DAMN! DIGI GEN BAND WAS AWESOME!! Jungmo blew me away! ((: AND SUNGMIN! I cannot see your eyes! Khunnie!! great keyboard skills and voice!! Hyukkie, rap has improved! The white guy whom I don't know is AWESOME! Rap damn fast! omg! I was shocked! This performance was a very good way to start melons.

2PM's dance break was very cool. Good work guys!

Jo's FF was nice. CONTINUE IT JO! ((: Mine was the beginning of junbros and Jo hasn't seen it! )): Cos she went to malaysia. lols. Nvm. She can read it when she return.. haha.

Today Im only going to post a few vids. especially DG band!

DG BAND! ((:

Jungmo damn hot! The song starts at 1.30.

Damn cool rite??! Hyukkie! Khunnie! Sungminnie! Jungmo! *crazy*

BEG!

2PM's Again and Again + Dance break

Thats it! I lazy le. Going to try write my ff part 2. but i no inspiration! )):
Nvm.. byebye!

Listening to music: oh my super girl. ni shi wo de baby girl...

2009-12-14T22:20:00.002+08:00

Mood: Laughing again.. ((:

DUBU!! THIS VID IS FOR YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN! (:

hehe..rmbr i said i was watching sang sang plus? Hilarious? Minho really abit like onew..onew condition. minho condition? haha..

My KL trip photos are not yet ready..I dnt think i want to post about it..very tiring.so many photos.. But wanna know smth? When I left, it was thursday night, 8.30pm. reach there on friday morning, 3am. hotel cheated my feelings and we couldn't book in. we stayed out till 9am. Sit ard the area, some sleeping, playing, hearing music..Finally, we went to another hotel with the same name cos apparently, the rooms that we booked were given to other people.. like wth right?! We put everything in the rooms and finally went to sleep. ahh..damn shiok then. ((: It was 10am by the time we slept. woke up at 12pm, went out for the rest of the day. spend the rest of the holiday in KL just walking ard..shopping. didn't but much..mainly spend on food. hhehe. okay, thats all..dnt want to talk much abt it. tiring but not bad. (:

And, I love my friends! ((: did I mention that? I love many people and one of them are my friends! ((: lols..Im crazy. -.-

Okay, i gotta go..gdnite! tmrw must wake up early collect books since i under fas..byebye!

Listening to music: iro chom micho niga...

2009-12-14T15:51:00.003+08:00

Mood: Crazy..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DUBU!!

IM BACK FROM KL!!

hehe..Dubu, smile more!! When I see you at music bank, why you nvr smile?! Unhappy? Cheer up kays?! Jojo was fantastic! LOVE IT! Taeminnie's clothes daebakk! ((:

Junsu so cute! 2PM damn high de..Good! Means they are happy. (: Taec also very cute! With the bear hand..

Like the couples formed at Mb and Inki and Mc..((:

Watching Sang Sang Plus now.. Funny! My Minho! Everybody was hilarious!! ((: Love them! ((:
haha..lols..gtg..some people argh.. ((: byebye!!

Listening to music: Senni chuka hamida!

2009-12-10T15:20:00.001+08:00

Mood: Happy~~

Heyhey!! Im not gone yet! going tonight.. ((: Rewatching suju Mini drama for the 3RD TIME!! omg..hehe..its very nice. ((: Cannot get enough of yewook couple! ((:

Gosh. im kinda disgusted too.. Another bloody letter was sent and this time to lee joon..its not pubes but that fan actually cut her wrists! omg! lee joon must have a shock..seriously, don't these fans know that such letters may affect the idols they like negatively! gosh..poor lee joon..I will refrain from doing anything that might hurt my idols. or scare them.this person is really sick in the mind.sorry for the crude language but i cnt help myself..

And SHINee maknae rebellion was so nice!! Yunhwa's cross-dressing was really daebakk!! I really thought he was a girl.. Sorry Taemin-ah, this time Yunhwa is prettier than you but don't worry, you are cuter! ((:

Okay, going to pack my bag..hehe..lazy to pack my bag yesterday..wanted to watch hptx just now but decided that i will not be happy watching it so didn't. gtg.bye everyone! a few vids for hyung again. ((: annyeong!

2009-12-09T22:32:00.004+08:00

Mood: Kinda sleepy but refreshed by Eunteuk's cuteness. (:

Yeah..Eunteuk's cuteness!! Its so cute.It was monday's sukira.. dman cute! ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINHO!! ahh--minho oppa, saranghae! don't work so hard! Seeing you work so hard in dream team, it hurts when you failed. You tried your best so enjoy today with the rest of the members. It was Luna's birthday yesterday, so if you are celebrating with her that's fine. You should celebrate with your hyungs, dongsaengs, sunbae-nims..But since you're at Canada now, celebrate another time with time. But today, have fun! (: Wish Luna Happy Belated Birthday. ((: Minho FIGHTING! (:

Today,watched New moon with Hyung. she was angry with some people and I kinda saved her by accompanying her watch movie. ((: She even treat me to popcorn..how sweet! (:

I watched Miracle and IMR today..so happy cos its SUBBED! ((: and it was so nice and funny! I shocked myself yesterday when I watch YAB till the end! 16 episodes in almost only one day! I really shocked myself. But its because I couldn't stop. From start till end, its very nice. Kept my eyes on the screen all the way. Hongki seriously daebakk! and Im beginning to like Jang deon yuk! ((:

Im going to KL tmrw so won't contact anybody. Be back by Sunday. Don't miss me! haha..Actually, Im gonna miss umma..she kept going overseas..she's going to be very tired..

Yes! My FAS got approved! Thank god..I was wondering how am I going to pay for all those books if it wasn't approved. Its very expensive. )):

Okay, some sukira cuts..damn cute de. ((: hyung, you should watch this. ((:

Cute right??! Eunteuk very cute..I should try to find a way to hear sukira someday. ((:

Okay, i gtg..Though I want to catch today's sukira but its okay..im abit too tired to stay awake.
Jaebeom oppa! Missing you, pink bunny...

Listening to music: I wanna gossip girl...

2009-12-06T18:35:00.002+08:00

Mood: Tired

Just return from mum's house. Watch Inki. 2PM won as expected. They damn hyper and happy today. Maknae flipped today. ((: So glad for them. ((:

Man, its been a long time since i updated my blog.. Today, I bought jeans. Omg, I can't believe i actually bought jeans..I dnt really like the colour and the material, but for tmrw and other days when i need it, I bought it in the end. (: And when i was at Orchard Central, I went to this shop to look ard. When i was about to try on a shirt, love like this suddenly played. I was shocked. lols..then i tried and ponder whether to buy it or not. Decided not to in the end. When i left the shop, the song ended. ((: Just nice..

And I cut my hair.. ((: I dnt know how Im gonna tie it when school reopens..cos its kind of uneven..haish.. Nvm. I'll find a way to tie it.

Today, Beast was awesome. But Yoseob was so cool during the perf. ): I prefer when he smiles and act cute. hehe.. I love that song they sang.. Omo! Yoseob and Joon hyung were so cute! when they were doing the digital music chart. *Fangirl mode!* hehe..And I dnt know why but gossip girl kept ringing in my mind ever since the day I cut my hair. I only find the song okay. Maybe its catchy so i rmbr. -.-" Idk.I think its starting to be more than okay?

I haven't had time to do anything nowadays. Cnt update blog, livejournal, use facebook and the main thing: WATCH SHOWS! omg..i haven't watch alot of shows! ): I got to find time..nxt yr i cnt use com long le..haha..what hyung say is right. Im a computer addict. -.-

Okay, gtg..posting beast digital k chart. ((: bye!

Listening to music: ryeowook's piano composition..PIANO. -.- (:

2009-12-02T12:09:00.002+08:00

Mood: So-so

TAEMINNIE HAS RECOVERED!! Congratulations! finally..

haish..im broke! I don't think i got money for Dec outing. Wait! Its CONFIRMED i no money! )):
next year, I got to save lots of money! Then, by end of year, i got enough to go shopping, buy presents, and get a new bloody Ipod for myself. Next year, Im going to indulge myself in luxury! lols! if i save enough money. And part of the money, I will donate to 2oneday for their projects! ((:

Now gt so many videos to watch. But some are uploaded halfway! ): Must wait..teukigayo was so funny! haha..my hyukkie! and teukie! ((:

Im going to play hungry blocks now..there's nth to do..bored.. -.-"

Listening to music: elastic elastic elastic elastic..

2009-11-29T18:16:00.002+08:00

Mood: AH! SO HAPPY!

2PM WON! WOOHOO!! Damn nice! SHINee's, BEAST's, 2PM's performances are all so NICE!! I love it! Only khunnie and junsu left! hope Jay really returns! (: Finally, youngie smiled! Im so happy to see everyone smiling, and chansung's scream was cute when he shouted Jay's name.

Man, Taec's fangirl is sick in the mind! Disgusting! Okay, im not going to say about it. its gross!

Haish, Im trying to write me chptr 3 of SHINee World. Thank god Jo is helping me. I got a plot but it was her who helped me start the ball rolling.. okay, im going to write the fanfic now. not going to post vids since its confirm hyung got post. okay then, byebye!

Listening to music: amudo murogo mam a-a-apugo~~

2009-11-28T23:38:00.002+08:00

Mood: AHH! NOW IM BLOODY SAD! ):

When I saw that vids in the channel, I didn't wanna watch for fear that I'll be hurt once again. But here I am, hours since I saw the vids. Heart hurting, tears wanting to drop...I don't wanna continue watching but I force myself too. I want to know how he is holding up. He seemed to be breaking inside. Man, he is just 24. How can they do this to him? They can forgive their own citizens but not someone who is foreign? how could they? ): He's upset but us fans hearing and seeing this footage are feeling very hurt too.

I don't wanna talk about this anymore. I cannot stand this. I thinks what the girl say is right. They accept only their own people and push everypne else away. This is unfair. Totally unfair. I don't wanna post about this anymore. Im just going to spend some time alone with my handphone and earpiece now. Only God knows what I'm doing later. Oppa, haruga jinado nan norur mod ijo handari jinado nan norur mod nwajwo..

Listening to music:

Dola oljido molla (nul)

Nun dola oljido molla ah (dola ol guhya)

Weh dola ojileul ana (baby)

Nan iluhkeh nul gidaligo issuh (iluhkeh gidalyuh)

Dola oljido molla~~

2009-11-28T18:45:00.003+08:00

Mood: ROFL!

Today was very tiring.slept at 1am ystdy and woke up at 6! haish..gtg to school for the bloody open house. It was a crazy day. Umma came but her reaction was abit weird.as if we irritated her or smth.but maybe thats just how she looked. hahha..umma! no offence.

Omg! I WANT that traditional medicine that kwonnie had! I want grow taller! )):
And today got so many vids to watch..I just watch SGB de vid. Im practically laughing like mad. And i also rewatch the gag concert show where minho and onew attend. so funny..((: sfi upload so many vids today! im so happy!

but abit sad also.i watch the encore of 2PM's heartbeat when they won K-chart. It was so funny and cute but youngie lost his smile le ever since Jay has left. Youngie ah! Smile more okay! Jay would want that! (: haish..feel so sad for him..Junsu so funny! Did taec's throw too but then he laughed! cos like taec. hehe..so cute! Then Junho and Taec beat him! haha..AHH!! SO CUTE! WHEN KHUNNIE WAS RAPPING!!AHH!! *SPAZZING! DAMN I LOVE 2PM!

AND PBG!! AHH!! I laughed really hard when junho said Tomorrrow is Nae-il right? lols! he is still learning eng and he said he likes reading eng bks..lols. When khunnie was asked to ask Junho a question: let me re-enact.
Khunnie: What are you planning to do tomorrow?
Junho:Ah..Tomorrow is nea-il right?
hahaha..its just so funny. Khunnie was like haish?! and Junsu! OMG! Im seriously ROFL now...His acting scene..gosh..i cannot take this laughing! ((: YEAH! JAEBUM WON! (:

Im going to post the vids ltr. All really funny! (: Im going to post only a few..hehe..cos i selfish mah! (:

Okay VIDS!!
First up, OMG MY 2PM! (:

SHINee!

Heechul so funny here!! muahahah!! ((: And Onew is really so talented! LOVE SHINee!!

I TOTALLY AGREE WITH THIS ONE! My MINHO-AH! And TAEMINNIE!

Onew is so cute!

Okay thats it. I got many more but like i said, im selfish! ((: hehehe...

Listening to music: nan iroke ttollinun gasumul mido

2009-11-27T16:18:00.002+08:00

Mood: A little sad.

AHH! Its all Jo's fault! Why she wrote the fanfic like that?! its so sad! )):
Anyway,guys! Im into fanfics like I said b4 but this time im taking a step further. ((: Im writing fanfics too..just for fun. hehe.

And now Korea so suey..So many people kena swine flu. haish. Recover soon everyone who contracted swine flu! Especially you Taeminnie! ((:

Anyway, going to write my fanfic chpt 2! (: Its boring but i don't care. Its just for fun. and to waste time. God knows how bored I am at home. Haish. ):

Listening to music: Listen to my heartbeat!

2009-11-26T12:14:00.002+08:00

Mood: So-so

Taeminnie is down with swine flu. Alrdy 3 members of SHINee has been down with swine flu. I hope Minho and Key wnt get sick. OMG! If Bling2 got thinner after swine flu, then wudn't taeminnie get thinner too??! AHH!! NO!! He is thin enough!

Ooh..Jo has finish Jaytaec's fanfiction! gomawo Jo! ((: Okay, not going to talk long today.
I wanna watch shows.. Umma is back! woohoo!!

Listening to music: i wanna wanna..

2009-11-25T13:57:00.003+08:00

Mood: Sad..Crying.

Today is a day where I only hear sad songs and watch sad videos.. I watched Love Escort, Hongki's drama cut and SNSD Chocolate cut. They were all very sad. I think Hongki's acting is superb. It touched my heart so much. ANd the SNSD cut nvr failed to make me cry. It made me think of my own mother whom Im not very close to anymore.. And 2AM's love for Minki was equally touching. Like all other similar shows i watched, I cried abit. Some i cried alot but some just a little.. When Kwonnie cried, my heart just went out to him. Watching these shows has made me understand many things about life, emotions, feelings..

Today, News was a little sad. Wheesung is another victim of swine flu.haish..I wonder if its true? Is Jay really working part time? Actually, Im glad that he's moving on but Im sad that his privacy is invaded yet again..

Again, another composition just pop up in my mind. To my beloved Jay,

Tears just kept dropping down my cheecks,
Stubbornly refusing to stop.
I don't know why but my heart is aching.
Although you've gone, the spotlight still remains
On that spot you once stood on.
The song still plays on, your voice clear as crystal.
You know its only you my baby, its only you.
You are the only one
who my tears are dropping for,
who my heart is aching for,
and the only one who can fill that empty spot
where the spotlight is still shining on...

Listening to music: geudaereul bureumyeon, geudaereul chajeumyeon, haessari doeeoseo, nae gyeote wajwoyo~~

2009-11-24T17:57:00.002+08:00

Mood: Laughing uncontollably

hehe..I just watched finished last episode of Idol Army season 3 again! I told you I cannot find all the videos to share with you but i skipped all the way to the end. I love the last part. Here you go. I cannot share everything but at least I can share the ending. ((: It cheered me up incredibly!

Listening to music: Baby~~jebal guye sonul japjima..Cos You Should Be My Lady~~

2009-11-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

Mood: ((:

I just found some vids that cheered me up incredibly. Here you go! ((:

Jo Kwon is so hilarious! ((:

OMG! I love this video ALOT! (: Its so cute! My hyukkie!!

Lols..I watched this vid last time but i forgot to share. So i watched again and post b4 i forget again.hehe. Check out 1.32.

HAHAHA!! I watched this today! I LIKE this couple too! they are so cute! haha. the chicken squeezer! haha! I saw that in Bugis b4! haha.

Okay, nice? haha..((: gtg..byebye!

Listening to music: gee gee gee gee baby baby...

2009-11-23T18:21:00.003+08:00

Mood: OMO!!

OMG! MY AMBER!! H1N1 STRIKES AGAIN!! Sulli, Amber and Krystal are down with H1N1!!! AHH!! And DONGHO!! He got very sick! Not H1N1 but enough to land him at ER!! Emergency room! Gosh! Thank god he is feeling better le. ((: Hope F(x) members recover quickly and dance on stage again. Gosh..3 at once?!

AHH!! I JUST LOVE 2PM! THEY ARE SO CUTE!! haha..there's this vid today! Its neomu cute!! ((: I'll post later! ((: hehe.. and i thank the female at gag concert who mentioned jaebum oppa! GOMAWO!! ((:

Okay, im going to watch my dramas.. ((: byebye!!

My cute 2PM! ((:

Listening to music: every night i'll be with you, do u love her, do u love her? ((:

2009-11-22T20:55:00.002+08:00

Mood: Undecipherable..

I don't know whether to be happy or sad. MAMA was outstanding. How I wished SHINee, Suju and SM artistes can share this glorious day.

I wished so much that Jay could be there to share the happiness with 2PM. I was so happy when 2PM won the awards but i cried when they have their speech. Taecyeon made me laugh when he counted AKB48 members but he made me cry so much when he mentioned Jaebum. Chansung too. Hottests is also wishing for his return, ok daeri and maknae and 2PM!! The again and again perf was also very touching! I just cannot stop crying. Even at this moment, I cannot stop thinking about it. Im sure Jaebum is watching MAMA and happily crying for the rest of the members. He must be so proud of them. Im so proud of them too. Everyone was crying when they won. That included the members itself. Im so happy for them. Later I'll post the vids though i think hyung already posted but I wanna share this day with everyone. And did i mention that Khunnie was so cute??! -.-

And DBSK..haish. When Jaejoong was talking at their speech, I cried too. I know that he must be missing Yunho and Changmin. I think that celebrities are so poor thing. Sometimes, they can be caught in between other disputes of their company and other companies. SME and Mnet is one example. I really fear for the future of all the kpop idols i love and admired.

Okay, lets stop all the emotional words. Other than these touching moments, there are also the nice moments. Wheesung was cool. His version of lachata was damn cool.

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL WHO WON AT MAMA TODAY!!

Winner List for MAMA 2009

Best New Male Artist: Supreme Team

Best New Female Artist: 2NE1

Best Dance Award: Kara - Honey

Best Mixed Group: 8eight

Best Hip Hop Music Award: LeeSang

Best House and Electronic Award: Brown Eyed Girls - Abracadabra

Best Ballad/R&B Award: Kim TaeWoo - Love Rain

Best Asian Star: Dong Bang Shin Ki

Best Male Solo Artist: Drunken Tiger

Best Female Solo Artist: Baek Ji Young

Best Asian Composer: JYP

Best MV: 2NE1 - Fire

Best Female Group: Brown Eyed Girl

Best Male Group: 2PM

Album of the Year: Heartbreaker - G-Dragon

Song of the Year: I Don't Care - 2NE1

Artist of the Year: 2PM

haha..lols. other than wheesung, there's k-will, g dragon, taeyang.. k-will performed heartbreaker. quite similar. but a little different. At the red carpet, when i saw G-dragon, i was kinda shocked. I thought he enlisted to army or something. haha.. and his hat was tipped sideways. Cool.. Like T.O.P! Man, my post is very long this time.. Very3 long.. -.-
Okay, i'll shall stop talking now. I better post the vids. There are alot! ((:

2PM

AKB48 ( U guys thought im only a kpop fan? well, u're wrong. haha. check out 1.35. Taec is so cute! ((: )

Brown Eyed girls

Brown Eyed Girls and Kara. Mash! Cool!

2NE1

Ivy and my khunnie! omg!

G-Dragon ( i kinda miss his blond hair. hehe)

Taeyang!

G-Dragon and Taeyang (Nice!)

Vids that made me cry.

2PM

DBSK

Wheesung's cool rendition.

And i found this cute video of onew recently. ((:

Okay. thats it. ((: Goodnight everyone! (:

Listening to music: Leader jay, Park jaebum, please come back to us now.

2009-11-21T17:58:00.002+08:00

Mood: Happy

Im just so happy. Seunggi is recovering from H1N1 and SHINee has performed as a 5 member boyband again at MC! Onew has recovered and jonghyun is feeling well enough to perform. so all 5 performed on MC!! YAY! ((: Bt is that RED on Key's hair?? IDK! But somehow i dnt really like key's and taeminnie's hair today.. but i love their hot stage on MC! when they just jumped straight to the rap. Im applausing Key again. He gave an outstanding performance today. and when he did his hair while dancing, wow..My minho is hot as usual and he did the rocka rocka part again instead of taeminnie again..

And 2PM was so nice!! As usual their performance was outstanding. This time, the ending was done by taecyeon. Previously, it was done by junho if im nt wrong. and the first one was done by youngie. but i guess they are taking turns now.. ((:

Okay, im going off now. watching happy together.byebye!!

Listening to music: oh my super girl, ni shi wo de baby girl... ((:

2009-11-19T10:08:00.002+08:00

Mood: Tired

I slept very late yesterday! I was watching PTU, then hot shot. then repeat of sgb...Today got to go back to zhenghua. ((:

AND ONEW IS FULLY CURED!!! WOOHOO!

im so glad that he finally recovered. Each day he is still sick, each day i will get scared.
AHH!! Jay has even touched the moms in US..why wudn't he return?? Nvm.no matter how long, we Hottests will wait for him...

Okay, i gtg..ltr late for meting with the rest i die! byebye!

Listening to music: do it do it chu, its true true true its you~~

2009-11-17T14:09:00.004+08:00

[EDIT] Mood: HAPPY!!! yet unhappy!

I GOT INTO CLASS 802?? SERIOUS? 3D? YEAH!! Jiapeng!! Thanks so much for telling me the results! ARGH!! UMMA! HYUNG! PLS BE BESIDE MY CLASS??! PLS3! Hyung and Umma go class 801. )): Proud of them and happy for them but ahh!! we will be separated! ): MY CLASS HAS 43 STUDENTS!!! OMG! so many..i dnt like register no. 24! i want my 14 back!!
anyway, ira nt same class as me again. ): ira ah ira.. u shud have studied harder. dnt be worried over BGR things okay? it will only pull u down.

Im so dead! people i dnt like are gonna be in my class!! man! i gt to learn how to avoid people without letting them knw i dnt like them..haha..no lah. i think i can handle them. some of those who went into class 701 and 702 shocked me man..i think cos they put 701 n 702 as first choice. *shaking head* they cud have a better chance in 8 subs..

poor deena.. only one in her class. at least ira gt ummai, hanis and fee they all. I shocked man syahirah masuk 801. she have to buck up from now on..good for her. i practically analysed every class..well, every class has its good and bad..im okay with my class. Anyway, EVERYONE! WE ARE SENIORS NOW! ((:

Okay, im gonna watch loving you a thousand times now. and pack my bag. im sleeping at my mummy's house! ((: can watch dream team le. (: okay, byebye!!

Listening to music: i call you butterfly...

2009-11-16T20:46:00.004+08:00

Mood: Emotional...

I watched something very sad about suju. Throughout their journey, from the moment they started training to now, the difficulties and sufferings they have to take and endure. Their msgs to those who were in the hospital. Constant injury relapse but refusing to give up. Finally, their injuries taken to a worse and they have to re-admit into the hospital but after re-charging, they went back to their activities. Believing in E.L.F and their members, they stood back on their feet.
Their brotherhood, like 2PM and SHINee, were very close. When 2Pm had their comeback, Jaebum even shouted what time is it now? through the phone.thanks to youngie who called Jay at Seattle b4 the performance. When i know abt this, i tear up. What to do? They are really very close.

Made me think about Fangwei, Nerissa and the close friends that I've made these 2 years. I felt very sorry for many things. Like how i should have told Nerissa that she always make me feel inferior in her presence. I should have also told Fangwei that she is a very straightforward girl who makes people trust her easily. Or I could have told Cher that her voice is very loud but its one of her most recognizable trait. Once i hear her voice, even if its within two classrooms, I can confidently say, "Oh! Thats Cher!" I have so many things to say but we are going to separate soon..Even if some still stay with me, it will not be the same. It won't be 1A'08 or 2A'09. Over the two years, we have bonded. We had our bad times, good times, silly moments, funny moments, but they were moments i would not forgot.

If time could be stopped, i would want it to stop at the time when we were having the mass relay recently. The runners were running, the rest were cheering and it was a funny yet memorable moment. Poor runners. They tried their best and some even vomitted but we stood by them. Though nobody said anything, I know some were worried for those who were sick. And being 3rd is good enough. Actually, any position is good enough as long as we have worked hard together, as a class, as 2A'09...

I am going to work harder now. I want to graduate with everyone and tell Fangwei and Nerissa and those who were with me" Hey! We've graduated! I've done well!" I am not going to disappoint hyung, umma, and all teachers who worked hard with us. I want to acheive my dream and aims. One of them is to lose weight! I must exercise alot this holidays. Another aim is to grow tall! But that, I don't know how to achieve. ):

So to everyone who has been in 1A'08 and 2A'09, lets work hard together okay?! Even if we are separated, we'll be able to stand on the stage as one once again when we graduate. Don't give up to fatigue or pressure because determination is what you need most to survive the ordeals. If ever you feel tired or just wanna give up, tell yourself this: " My classmates are fighting with me. So are my teachers. If i give up, all of us failed. I want to hug my friends and teachers and say I did it. So i must hang on. Even if i need to bite my teeth, I must continue. Fighting! Jiayous! I can do it!"

Okay? I will miss all of you so when we have time, lets go out and create lots of memories! Just not shopping please? I will be bankrupt if you ask me out for shopping again! and im sure your feet hurts! haha..okay, just kidding.. Love all of you!

The vids that made me cry? If you are an E.L.F, You will definitely cry. If you know that these happened to them b4 but u didn't know the extent, you'll cry to know that it was so horrible. Okay there are only 5 parts. Its incomplete but the author went MIA so i'll just upload these 5. Here you go. Remember to put a box of tissues beside you. Or you'll end up cleaning yourself using your sleeves like me! ahh, i got to change my clothes.

And an extra. Jo has been going crazy over Junsu and i really like this vid myself. To Josephine and Nerissa, Junsu fanvid. (:

Nice? Jo must be screaming like hell now. Umma might be crying? But she is a strong person so I don't know how she will feel after watching the fanmade vids. Sad? Yes but cry? Im not sure...
Okay, im going to go offline. byebye my loves!

Listening to music: Just beyond the night, I thought I heard you cry...

2009-11-15T15:53:00.002+08:00

Mood: SUPER SAD!!!

WHY??? WHY CANNOT IT BE TRUE! AHH! its confirmed not true! the photo was taken in August. AHH!! i feel like crying! The 100 reasons to why Hottests love park jaebeom make me a little happy. but its not enough! I agree with all the reasons! i love this few especially: Because only you can make it 2:00pm, and also this one : Because when I look at you, my smile never ends, and : Because I know that you are definitely going to return and: Because you are 2PM’s Leadja. I love all but i love these few most. ((:

Im so sad..i just cannot stop thinking abt it! i think im gonna go offline. I can't take this anymore. im going to singapore flyer to get rid of sadness or at least have a moment to myself and my past..dnt understd what im saying? nvm.. im off now. bye

Listening to music: nae gasumul apuge hangudaerul itji mothae

2009-11-14T20:00:00.003+08:00

Mood: IM GOING CRAZY!!!

OMG!! AHH!! IM SCREAMING MY LUNGS OUT!! ISSIT IT TRUE??!! I THINK ITS AT LEAST 50% TRUE!! AHH!! JAY! ARE U REALLY BACK??!

Okay, i know im crazy but all the differences! Different cap, pants, bag! It could be recent and true!! HE'S BACK!! AHH!! CRAZY!! CRAZY!!

AND I RECEIVED MY SHINEE POSTERS!! WOOHOO!! JUST WHEN I KNOW THAT HE'S BACK, THE POSTMAN CAME! IM SO HAPPY! ITS THE BEST HOUR EVER!! The CDs are c0ming by monday! ((:

Okay, i said i was touched by Hottests' chanting. I'll post the full vid ltr. And also today's music core. i hope ITS TRUE. Jay's return!! but like wad hyung said, it may be true and it may not be true. but i really hope its true!!

Okay, now hyung ranting...cos of the boycott. she agitated! cos boycott wnt do any good!! haha..then she say want watch the football match.lols. Singapore VS Thailand. i dnt even care abt that match. I care about my leadja!! Im crazily praying that he's back.

Okay, i watched good daddy today again. Its just so hilarious!! Heechul plus Hongki= crazy, hilarious, flower fathers!! omg i just gone crazy laughing at heechul! hahaha..

okay, the vids.

the chantings are so obvious!! Hottests really are so touching!
This is the intro. Then the performance.

AND MY MINHO!! muahaha!! i saw this vid and i went KIA!! haha..lols! over-exaggerated.

hehe..okay..gtg. byebye!!

Listening to music: Listen to my heartbeat!!!

2009-11-13T22:01:00.003+08:00

Mood: Tired, giddy, pissed off, touched

Tired bcos i just came back from cca. Tired and i dnt knw why i so emo in the afternoon. Im beginning to feel sad each time i hear a sad song or melody. Idk why but i seemed to understand their feelings. )): I also dnt know why my head n0w very giddy. Recently, new songs keep popping up and its all very nice! (:

Im pissed off bcos the bloody person who bash minho and onew continued bashing them! even after i scolded him, he can actually continue bashing and even FYI me??!! omg! im so pissed off! How old is that idiot?! He wasn't raised well apparently. So he does not know how to respect people and is definitely not a SHINee fan! Buut he says he is a fan. FCK HIM!! bullshit! Man im so pissed off.

And SHINee didn't win today. MINHO SANG!!! hehe..Dube is recovering well!! woohoo! (:
SS501 won but i like both bands so i thought its okay. SHINee had won b4. Let ss501 win this time. And taeyang's vid!!! omg i LOVE the song!! its so nice! and the MV!! i kinda able to feel what he was feeling. It was heartbreaking!!

And Hyun joong's comment kinda make some fans angry. I saw comments that was seriuosly woah! bt maybe hyun joong was just kidding. i mean we dnt know rite? it could be a personal joke between him and the members. who knows rite?

And 2PM's intro was nice!! it was so touching!! I heard fans chanting their names and jay's. It was overall very nice. Made me miss Jay alot and their intro was very powerful. Very worthy of the beastly idol image, though this time it seemed like a hurt beast. )): Im also so touched that all the members' parents came. Its all so touching!

Okay, tmrw im gonna have to wake up early. cos got volunteer to help out at the graduation concert for the kindergarden students..very tired. Going to sleep now. goodnight! i will post some vids below. Mainly today's mb. ((:

Im loving yoseob more and more!!! I love the new dance break! ((:
haha..okay, bb!!

Listening to music: nae gasumi apado darun saramul bodon gudae...

2009-11-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

Mood: Abit touched

Finally! 2PM's comeback! its a fancam but at least i can see them. Gosh only little screams but at least some hottests went to support them. AHH!! I feel so sad! I hope music bank, Jay will come back!

Okay, i online just to blog about this. Hopefully, a clearer video comes out tomorrow.Goodnight!! ((:

Listening to music: listen to my heartbeat!! ((:

2009-11-12T14:12:00.004+08:00

Mood: Touched? Happy? Angry? Definitely!

Touched. Because JYP talked about Jay at mbc golden fishery. I cried while listening to him talk about it. Happy because of something he said. If Jay did return, he will definitely return to 2PM. I was so touched and happy when i heard that. Im just so happy.

Angry? Because there's this bastard who bash Minho and Onew. He's a fanatic of Taemin and Key but he says Onew and Minho sucks. I was so angry! I scolded him back! Then i thought, why in the world am i scolding him? He's just a pathetic, jealous little freak. But i really hate his comments! I hope Minho will never see those comments. If not, it will affect his exams! OH! And minho took the college exam ystdy! hope he did well! Minho fighting! AND all those taking their college exams too!! FIGHTING!!

OMT!! Umma and Hyung both sick at the same time. Poor hyung got stomach flu and poor umma got gastric flu! Hyung, Umma!! GET WELL SOON!! Im waiting for the you guys to recover and we can go shopping for XMAS presents together!! ((:

Okay, Im gonna watch videos now. just now gt news about big bang and there is this video. OMT its so cute!! im beginning to like g-dragon and t.o.p alrdy!! ((: hehehe..okay, byebye!!

AND the video which moved me to tears!

Listeing to music: ring ding dong ring ding dong...

2009-11-11T11:46:00.005+08:00

Mood: Happy and bored

Yay!! Dubu is recovering quickly!! And JYP kept changing the dates for 2PM's comeback!never-ending..first inkigayo, then music bank, now mnet concert.. -.- but its set on the 12th at mnet concert. So yeah..i doubt JYP will bring Jay back in time for the concert but i hope he will come to music bank, I really missed him!!

And the MV for Heartbeat is out! I love the ending! The formation was so cool! The MV gt a sad vibe but they all looked so HOT in it! its saddening yet i want to seriously touch their bodies. Lols! *perverted me!* Taec's face made me wanna cry. He looked so anguished! So is Junsu and the rest.. )):

Okay, hyung is down with stomach flu!! Oh my bling bling fangwei! Recover soon okay??!

Man, im so bored. nth to do!! facebook, blog, watch idol army, viwawa..then nth le!! )):
suddenly, i wish that there's school.. hahaa. -.-

OMG!! IM SO SHOCKED!! LEE SEUNG GI!! How can u kena swine flu??! OMG! okay, relax nabila..seung gi oppa, u must recover soon too okays??! haish, so many people kena swine flu.. tsk3 *shaking head*

Okay, im gonna watch idol army season 1. sorry if i stop posting idol army season 3. Cannot find the videos. stupid youtube either suspended the accounts or removed the vids. )): I LOVE JAEJIN!!! WAHH!! AND MINHWAN!! (:
hhee, okay, bb!!

Listening to music: say oh oh oh baby la la la la la...

2009-11-10T21:05:00.002+08:00

Mood: Emotional

I just finish reading a book. its been such a long time since i read such a sad and touching book! I cried when i was reaching the last two chapters. That was when the tears came. It was just so sad! And the ending was so unexpected! The twist shocked me! I cried like hell! )):

Okay, im back online for i dnt know wad. Im just bored after reading the book since there's nth to do after that book. So i think i will play, facebook for awhile, maybe tweet? Then hear music and chill..

okay, im going do hear my music. byebye!!

Listening to music: molla molla molla molla molla molla...

2009-11-10T11:21:00.002+08:00

Mood: Sad yet happy? angry?

JYP is bringing Jay back!! OMG! im so touched! nt sure when or how but he's probably not returning to 2PM! )): I really missed him and this news made me tear up! Finally, JYP is doing something! I really am so touched. Even if Jay don't return to 2PM, i will still support both him and 2PM. Though its the best to return to 2PM. Cos his brother for 4 years are there..

The new songs of the new album are not bad. I love Only you the acoustic mix version..There's Jay's voice! Im so happy and touched. So getting tired of waiting is not the only song that will have Jay's voice. Seriously, tears are already dropping! Im just so ...

2PM got the voice but this album is kinda sad..Is it because Jay left? Im not sure but its probably one of the reasons why. i definitely think the look of the new album is nice. And im very touched because the name of the album is 01.59. Meaning they heard their fans. but its also saddening as it says they will remain that way, a six membered boyband..I think when they comeback in music bank this week, im gonna cry. )):

Okay, im damn angry too. DBSK's new contract sucks!! Even i can see that its so UNFAIR!! They made the contract worse! ARGH!! How can SM be so scheming and bad??! )):

G-dragon's new song is nice. It portays the feelings of a celebrity who wants out. and that life as a celebrity is not as easy as it seems. They may seemed like they have many things but they do not have the most important thing in their life. Freedom of speech, Freedom to have a girlfriend, Freedom of rest. Some artists do not have all these and its saddening..haish, i don't want to be a celebrity. Its scary...

Okay, im going to eat now. online again later to use facebook and watch videos. Need something to cheer me up. Oh, btw, ystdy's BBQ was cool. and tiring but it was fun. Though when i went home i got stomach ache! probably bcos of umma's "5,4,3,2,1, Okay its cooked!" muahaha..no lahh. Or it might be bcos of Marvin's heck care condition. Just let it burnt is probably his motto for ystdy's BBQ! haha..okay, im very hungry now. bb!

Listening to musc: Only you...

2009-11-09T11:11:00.002+08:00

Mood: Sick

Argh, my flu gotten worse. Its been so many days! I didn't go dance today so after chores, i used the com. As u can see, i changed my layout, AGAIN!! i know.. but this layout is the one i requested at DD. Really love chazzie for all the help!

News was okay..About ystdy's inki and why hyunah nt happy. Hope the manager let her rest and relax for awhile. She is only 17! and Congrats Jo kwon!!

JO KWON RECOVERED FULLY FROM SWINE FLU!!

((: Finally.. Korea is really having swine flu crisis later than the other countries.

Okay, not going to post idol army today. im posting SH instead! its so funny! I love boom acadamy. Im missing Boom alrdy!! Here you go! Cuts..

hahaha!! i think the last one is jjang! jo kwon always so funny!!
and Hodong's reaction are so funny!! muahaha!! ((:

Okay, i wanna go eat lunch. Meeting the rest at 2PM!! lols.bb!

Listening to music: nan noye Genie ya, kkumiya, Genie ya ;)

2009-11-08T18:22:00.002+08:00

Mood: Tired and agitated

Today gt dance. Quite tiring and it was so hot!! perspiring like siao. Went home eat then use com.

Today's INKIGAYO was JJANG!

SHINee won!!! Im also going crazy over chu UMMA!! ((: and man man han ni was so nice!! im nw crazily tweeting.trying to make Jaebum and SHINee be first in trending topics for the past hour! i cannot give up!! Stupid Sex thingy! GTH!! Damn those perverted people! ):

Okay i gt to relax!! now after blogging, im gonna dance! damn tired but very agitated nw! just gonna post perfs that i like n bother to watch today. ((:

Okay thats all for today. im beginning to get agitated again. stupid sex thing! bb..

Listening to music do it do it chu...

2009-11-07T21:32:00.002+08:00

Mood: FREAKING HIGH!!!

SUPER JUNIOR LEETEUK WILL REPLACE ONEW AT RING DING DONG TMRW AT INKI!!!

AHH!!

TO SHOW SUPPORT FOR HIS JUNIORS, TEUKIE IS GONNA PERFORM!!!

FIRST IS YESUNG THEN TEUKIE!! WOOHOO!

GOING CRAZY HERE! Im going to listen to RDD b4 i sleep!!! im damn high!!

Listening to music: Im going crazy, my lady!!

2009-11-07T16:44:00.004+08:00

Mood: so-so.. now shocked!

Had dance this afternoon at RP. Came home to find solo teasers. I LOVE Ok Daeri's and Khunnie's teaser. Made me sad but it was so BEAUTIFUL! I really love 2PM and I miss Jay...

And good news!! the albums arrived safely!!! YAY!! Im so happy! Thank god! ((:
Im beginning to love some of the groups i neutral to when they debut. not love lah. just like their songs. ((:

OH! And congrats to jonghyun!! He recover fully! and also to seohyun and yuri. Congrats on passing your exams!! Hope you guys have a happy time in college! (:

Btw, I saw this poll on dkp. its called Who will gain the biggest success in November? Obviously i voted SHINee. ((: and even without me voting, SHINee is alrdy leading!! woohoo!! But i still had to show my support. (:

AND MY HYUKKIE SO CUTE!! WAHH!! hehe..((: ltr u'll knw why. okay, its been some time since i uploaded idol army. Hmm..which ep was I at last? OH! its ep7! okay2..gonna find the vids now. (:

WAIT!! BACKTRACK ABIT!! WHAT?? ONEW GT SWINE FLU?? OMG!! MY DUBU!!!
dubu-ah!! like that though with hyung back, shinee will still perform as 4 member group at Inki!! But good thing its nth serious. DUBU-AH, REST WELL KAYS?! SARANGHAE! Take this opportunity to relax. As a leader, u must be under a lot of stress. Fighting! SHINee fighting!

Okay, videoosssss...~~ (:
First up: Hyukkie cute!

Next: Idol Army! (:

MUAHAHAH!! SO FUNNY!! hehe..i really love this episode! ((:

Third one: Khunnie and ok daeri's teaser. The one i said was sooo beautiful.

okay, im gonna watch movies online. bb!! ((:

Listening to music: get down, we gotta get down! (:

2009-11-06T22:28:00.002+08:00

Mood: Happy and Tired...

Yay! SHINEE WON! CONGRATS!! today is the much anticipated music bank. SHINee performed with yesungie!! lols..he danced so cute! so small moves.. I LOVE MINHO'S HAIR!! ITS STRAIGHT AGAIN!! YAY!! n Key really rock the whole performance! ((: I love today's mb!! except that they make shinee use mics again. -.-

As expected, Fx perform that song umma was making me laugh abt today. dnt understand wad im talking abt? nvm.. im typing this post in a state of fatigue. i got to wake damn early tmrw bt i die2 also want post today. btw, Amber looks a little more feminine in today's mb. i wonder if its bcos of the hair? hmm..and she SANG!! omg!! nt bad..haha..n their styles really change. Though i dnt like some styles. it doesn't suit their faces!

okay, today, woke up, eat scramble eggs, clean hse a little then use laptop. then hang clothes and change clothes and went out wif mummy to meet umma and hyung. they were alrdy finishing their food when we arrived. then mummy went home and me n the rest of the members walk ard finding clothes for hyung. 5.20, rushed home to watch MB. i was only 5 minutes late. phew~~~ bt i only wanted to watch shinee and fx and beg's performances. hehe..so i was practically chatting with mummy while waiting. then after watching MB, went home..read book for 2 hrs cos sis wanna use com. then finally posting. im gonna post the SHINee perf at mb today b4 going to sleep. damn tired now..

nice rite? Though i kinda think Jonghyun has a little bit, just a little bit higher pitch than yesungie. Yesungie's voice powerful but hyung's voice equally powerful. Nice performance overall. Okay im seriously going to sleep now. If not i wnt wake up on time tmrw. gdnite!

Listening to music: so fantastic, fantastic, fantastic, fantastic, elastic x4

2009-11-06T11:46:00.002+08:00

Mood: CRAZY!!

Im going out soon but i wanna show you guys a video. it made me freaking crazy and i laughed like siao! i used to watch it but after a few eeks i stop watching it. I found it in my youtube favourites so i thot i shud share with you guys this. In case you are wondering how am i able to use the com when im at my mum's hse, well, the reason is simple. My mum's hse has two laptops and two compters so i just used one. ((:

okay here you go. ((: enjoy!!

okay gtg!!byebye!!

Listening to music: Again and again and again and again~~

2009-11-05T17:00:00.002+08:00

Mood: Tired

Lols.. i haven't left for my mum's house so i thought i change my blogskin. Cause my current blogskin has a little problem. ((:

Here you go! I had alot of trouble with this skin when some trouble occurs. Thank God i solved the problems! Just add some codes and TADAA!! ((: okay i gtg..going mum's hse. ((: bb

Listening to music: Niga mipda... ((:

2009-11-05T14:46:00.003+08:00

Mood: so-so

As expected, a new teaser came out. Taec's scream was kinda hurting my heart. As if he was screaming in exasperation. The new album cover was so emo too. And there's only SIX members. )): Hopefully by the end of promotions for this new album, Jay would have returned and the next album will be worked on by all SEVEN members. ((: Its just my wish though.
2PM's msgs to Jay for his birthday were so sweet!! Jay baby.. another nickname for my leadja. ((:

Ouh! and HAPPY THIRD ANNIVERSARY SUPER JUNIOR K.R.Y!! You guys are awesome! Love your ballads a lot! especially Let's Not in the 3rd album. Your voices all have matured a lot over the years. Saranghae! and Keep up the Good Work!! ((:

YESUNGIE IS PERFORMING WITH SHINEE!!!! OMG! im gonna die!

okay2..relax..Oh man, i really DON'T WANT DBSK to split up. Im not a very great fan of them like i am to SHINee, Suju and 2PM but i love their songs and i like their acting! especially in the mini-dramas... They are so close like real brothers that its like a family breaking up. I hope they will stay together no matter what the outcome of the lawsuit.

okay, im not gonna post any videos for awhile because today, im going to my mum's house to sleepover so i won't be using the com much Then, tmrw and Sunday, i have dance rehearsal and performance. then on monday is the BBQ!! Going to chiong after dance to go home, shower, change clothes and chiong to meet hyung. We're meeting at 2PM!! ((:

okay, i gtg..im thinking of changing my blog layout but on second thought im not gonna do so. though the other one is also about Jay. Nvm..im going to log out now. ((: bb

Listening to music: nam ja ya...

2009-11-04T12:04:00.002+08:00

Mood: Happy again!

Yay! Hyung is recovering fast! And Jay was in the new song! WOOHOO!! At first I thought I imagined it but its actually true!! YAY!! ((: I LOVE KPOP!!

SM and DBSK the lawsuit getting more and more complicated. With SM trying to gain support, they could do anything! Hyung was right. Maybe they are really despicable? Im not only worried for DBSK, but im also very worried for the other groups under SM like SHINee, Suju, SNSD , F(x) and etc..Furthermore F(x) is a new and young group. Won't their contract and salary be even worse off??! OMG! i just cannot imagine it! its too cruel! )): im gonna stop here.

Its VIDEOS TIME!! ((:
First up: Idol Army.
Idol army has cheered me up alot so i hope it will bring happiness and laughter to you! ((:

Idol army ep 7!

lols..the grandma so cute! and also youngie!! okay2. i gtg..i love KANGHO AND EUN NIM COUPLE!! ((: hehe..dnt knw wad i talking abt rite?! ((:

Listening to music: Only you...

2009-11-03T16:02:00.002+08:00

Mood: Happy

Im happy bcos of idol army! decided to watch idol army today to cheer myself up and it did! ((: I also decided to watch Loving you a thousand times although it makes me angry sometimes. Especially that freaking woman! lazy and greedy and selfish brat! bt then i change my mind.. gonna watch i want to be a hard permisson instead. ((:

AHH!!! sad3! poor ruan shi zhi!! )): okay im crazy..u dnt knw wad im talking abt!!? haha..

okay i think i better upload ep6 of idol army.here u go! ((:

okay thats ep 6 everyone! youngie really brave rite? ((:
okay i gtg..bye bye!

Listening to music: da lang da lang, da lang, da lang da lang da lang.....

2009-11-03T12:10:00.003+08:00

Mood: ...

Today sucks.. i gt flu and hyung worse. Hyung got SWINE FLU!! )): Jonghyun hyung! Must take care okay?! Just leave everything to the rest of SHINee!! Then the song tired of waiting is out. The song is damn nice and sad cos Jay is not in it. The countdown is reset so probably another song is coming. )):

Man, im missing everybody! I hope my class chalet comes faster! Everyday going to dance is boring cause i couldn't get to see all my friends.. )):

Im feelimg very sick now. Going to watch idol army to cheer myself up so today going to post vids.
Be back later to post vids...
okay BACK! a little happy now. ((:

First up: Idol army ep 5!

lols..now you know why i love 2PM! ((:

okay..gtg..im gonna listen to 2pm's new song again. bb

Listening to music: only you, niga..

2009-11-02T17:10:00.002+08:00

Mood: Emo

I had a happy time during dance today. bt my mind wasn't entirely in it. I've been waiting for the countdown and wondering what will happen, half hoping that Jay has return but it was the teaser of 2PM's new song : Getting tired of waiting/ Waiting for you worn me out.
I felt so sad and cried when i heard the song because the boys sang them with so much power and love and unhappiness. I can hear that they missed Jay a lot. Im so upset now. Though the song is nice, it made me cry like the song I hate you.

2PM, Hottests will always support you. Jay will definitely be back. Thanks for giving us such a wonderful ballad. Though it makes us cry, we also cry with happiness that 2PM is returning strong after being dealt with such a harsh blow. Saranghae 2PM.. We miss you Jaebeom.

I bet when the full song comes out tomorrow, im gonna cry like hell. These two days, im not going to post idol army because i don't feel like doing so.

To people who thinks im stupid, let me tell you. Friends or family make up your life but for me, Kpop plays an important role in my life too. So, don't despise me because everyone is different.

Im gonna stop blogging now. Im going to listen to the teaser again and just be in my own Hottests world for a while. Bye.

Listening to music: kita gi daga, nuh ci chin da, you know....

2009-11-01T19:05:00.002+08:00

Mood: HAPPY!!

WOO!! I LOVE TODAY'S INKI!! yay!! SHINee won again!! and my hair is straight! Today, we dance very hyper and with lots of power!! woohoo!! I love my group! ((:

Just came back from work. To tell u the truth, the work sucks. bt no choice. I need the money. During hols, i gt a lot of dance practice n outings and the fact that my parents don't give me money during hols made things hard. ): so i rather work and earn my own money. since nxt two yrs i cnt work..i gt to fully focus on my studies.

Im currently trying to find other work that has a fixed salary at the end. If anybody gt recommendation, pls tag me. (:

Okay, today's vids consist of my grp! n our winning and idol army ep 4. (: nt sure if u guys watched idol army bt its freaking hilarious. Highly recommended! ((:

First up, Inkigayo! n the winning! ((:

I LOVE MYSELF!! ((:

NICE RITE??! lols..
okay, next up idol army! ((:

okay thats it! funny rite?!! haha..

n one last thing.suddenly remember it. its the flash mob i've been waiting for bt didn't see it when it came out. here u go.

okay..gtg. bb! ((;

Listening to music: again and again and again and again..

2009-10-30T16:58:00.005+08:00

Mood: Mixed feelings!

Im so happy!! Im going to be Sec 3 soon!! bt i dnt want to be separated with my current class!! )):
Especially UMMA AND BLING BLING!! AHH!! I cnt bear to leave my members! )): Hyung, Umma, Don't find another minho okays?! Im so going to miss everyone!

There's hope! today i check news and i discover smth. Since Jay's contract still remains with JYP, there's a high chance he will return! so as long as he returns, i think he cn take his time to relax and calm down from this mess. I hope he will return to 2PM once he is ready! ((:
Jay, we are waiting for you...

SHINee WON!! WOOHOOO!! Maybe nxttime is ss501? hehe..okay2..LOVE SHINee bt in case i go crazy again, best i change topic nw.

Okay. Today's VIDS!!
First up: Idol army ep3

Okay thats it for today's idol army! ((: u guys might be a little mad at those high school students so i posted smth else to make u happy. Well, it made ME happy.hehe.

MY SS501!! ((:

AND my SHINee!!! woohoo!! they won! ((: OMG IM GOING CRAZY NOW!! MINHO, SARANGHAEYO!! the vids are not like instiz bt its still good. ((:

Key so cute!! umma! saranghaeyo! my minho talked more than he used to and he was so HAPPY!! im very HAPPY now.. ((: I LOVE SHINee and SHINEE WORLD!! ((:

And a pic from AKP. ((:

Okay thats it for today.. gonna spend the rest of the time reading fanfics..i love the current one im reading..damn interesting..boa, jonghyun and GD having love triangle?! haha..nt true in real life bt in story, yeah..okay bb everyone! ((:

Listening to music: ring ding dong, ring ding dong...

2009-10-29T13:48:00.002+08:00

Mood: Sad.

AHH!! BOOM HAS LEFT FOR ARMY!! )): my cute Eunteuk CRIED!! Eeteuk cried badly! so does Boom...SAD!! DNT SAD2 Eunteuk! He'll be back!

OHH!! gt smth to say! Eunteuk's voices were so cute at kiss the radio!! ((: LOVE THEM! AND!!! HYUKKIE SO CUTE!! wahh!! the dance cut was so cute! i love hyukkie! i'll post idol army ep2 and also the dance cut of hyukkie ltr!hhee..

okay, to today's event. Its Sports Carnival. I thot its going to be boring bt it turned out quite okay. We were bz cheering for 2A during the mass relay. I laughed till my stomach hurt! bcos of nerissa! She was screaming as if she was giving birth!! It was damn funny! and her " OPEN UP YOUR LEGS!!!" was damn funny! haha..LOVE MARVIN FOR THIS!! He chiong like siao!! let 2A from 4th or 5th to 3rd at least! dnt misunderstand! I don't really love him. its just an expression! anyway, i wnt betray a friend! =P

okay im gonna post the vids nw. ((:

First up, the dance cut!

Nxt up: Idol army ep 2!

Wasn't that lols?! haha..youngie the secret revealer?! lols.
Nxt up: Jo kwon's dance! hyung, this is the one im talking abt! ((:

lols..Nxt one up: Cute girl!

CUTE RIGHT?!! hehe.
Another wonderbabies..must watch till the end!! ((:

Damn cute i know!! hehe..
Another one. i also don't knw wad this is talking abt bt the boy is so cute!! so young alrdy knw who is beatles! ((;

Nxt up: little dbsk!

Okay that's it for today! bb everyone! ((:

Listening to music: chi da ka ko ri...

2009-10-28T22:23:00.002+08:00

Mood: kinda tired.

Just return from cck with vivian. tiring bt okay ah. after this week i dnt want go lurh..i rather return back to my own,familiar profession. ((:

Okay, LOVE the news today! thank god Boom academy is not closing down. Gt Eeteuk and HYUKKIE!!! to man the academy..((: confirm strong heart will be as funny as ever!! ((:
and dbsk!! its gonna work out all fine! wish i cud say the same for 2PM. ):

Okay.i wnt post vids tonite as its late and im tired. Maybe tmrw okay? ((: argh! my bloody hp spoil!! ): i think i use this week's money to pay for the repair!! ):
okay, i wanna slp nw..very tired.goodnight! ((:

Listening to music: Only you, you're our smiling angel...

2009-10-27T19:54:00.002+08:00

Mood: HAPPY!!

YEAH!! I love the news!! DBSK FIGHTING!! there's hope! hope things are picking up and i wud get my last BIRTHDAY WISH which is also the most important one! ((:

As u can see, i changed my layout!! i spend hours finding it!! tiring! i was debating whether i should use this layout or SHINee's rdd's layout.then i decided this bcos my previous layout was alrdy SHINee. Nxt time, maybe i use suju's layout. or ss501? or shud i put ft island? i dnt knw. i'll decide then. ((: must watch the vids i posted! its very funny or sad!! ((:

okay, gtg..im perspiring and very tired from searching for layouts. bb guys! ((;

Listening to music: you don't know what a girl wants..

2009-10-27T12:56:00.002+08:00

Mood: So-So

I woke up to find my whole body aching like hell! Not sure if its bcos of ystdy's dance or arm-wrestling. I think its BOTH! ((:

Saw madeline's album: where cool people exists!! NICE! hehe.. THANKS HYUN JOONG # 2!! SARANGHAE! ((:

Okay. Today's news was okay. Nt going to say much cos i dnt feel like saying it.

Anyway, did u guys enjoy ystdy's vids? im going to post vids from nw on. just wanna share my world with u guys. If u haven't watch ystdy's vids, dnt watch today's first. watch ystdy's posts! thanks. some nice shows for u guys! ((:

MY MINHO INSIDE!! ((:

That's the end of my SHINee cut at starking. Next one up: An old cut of SHINee and SUJU..((:
eeteuk so cute!! hehe.

NICE??NICE??If u dnt understand, nvm..just watch the first 2mins of the show. the rest no need watch.((: next cut: Idol army cut

DAMN NICE MY JAY!! ((:

Next SHOW: IDOL ARMY!! old bt nice!

okay that's it for today. im gonna post this show ep by ep each day. ((: Cannot wait? find high quality and subbed ones urself! =P if you're wondering why im doing this, cos there is nth to post abt nwadays!! this also gives me a chance to rewatch idol army! ((; okay.bb!

Listening to music: gee gee gee gee baby baby....((:

2009-10-26T18:39:00.002+08:00

Mood: So-So, A Little Cheered up after seeing Jay's goofy self again. (:

For those who watched the videos i posted ystdy like Xueqi, Im gonna post subbed versions today. Its below. Enjoy. Its seriously funny. And some other shows.

Up till here, Its been Infinity Challenge with 2PM! Now its Gain and Jo kwon's married life! (:

Up till here, Its been Gain and Jo Kwon's WGM cuts. ((: Did you enjoy it? hehe..last show for today: Super Junior Animal Farm. Ya its ANIMAL FARM! lols. its a little funny but i cried during this show too. Its kinda sad especially when Wookie cried. MUST WATCH!

I CRIED ALOT DURING THIS EPISODE!! )):

Okay thats all for today. U may have laughed and cried while watching these shows but i just wanna tell you. Idols do not have it easy. They are not who they seemed to be. They are just ordinary human beings who worked probably harder than others. Okay i'll post other vids another day. Going to rest my fingers and cool myself down. The ep where i cried alot, up till now i still cnt not cry when i saw the episode. okay..bb guys. hope you enjoyed the vids today. (:

Listening to music: Lurb like this..lols!

2009-10-26T18:11:00.005+08:00

Mood: Tired and upset.

Finished Dance. It was very tiring. And when i returned home, i came to find the most upsetting news.

I guess i shouldn't expect Jay to return while he is still not ready. Now im tearing up. Although its nice to see him living well in Seattle, its also very upsetting that he just apologize and left into the night. Im sure his heart must be very heavy to turn his back on Korea. I am very sad and i also thought that the interview was unnecessary. What can he say after all this?! That he was hurt badly? that he needs a second chance? that he don't deserve the treatment he has gotten? It was all very sad. As i heard again and again, i wondered how 2PM is reacting to the cut or the show where it was aired. I just hope 2PM and Jay don't get too depressed. We, Hottests, will wait no matter how long for Jay to return.. Jay, Don't give up. We're waiting for you Jay Park.

i gtg now.i have no mood to write anything. Gonna watch infinity challenge SUBBED again. Hopefully i might cheer up a little. Jay, missing you...

Listening to music: Only you...

2009-10-25T15:31:00.002+08:00

Mood: Mixed feelings?

Just finished watching infinity challenge. Happy to see 2PM as 7 members bt sad to be reminded that Jay is no longer with them. I laughed along them as the show continued but at the back of my mind is a long sigh and a sad face. Seeing Jay's goofy self in infinity challenge made me laugh yet reminisce about the past. His previous variety shows and performances made me laugh bt they they can make me cry now. Jay, we really miss you. Heed our words and return please. Its the best for everyone. And the members are so cute!! don't you want to be with them? ((:

Okay, now to news. Shinee was splendid in star golden bell. Minnie like emma watson?! Ooh..his "Hi! I Love You!" in english was so cute! Key lols! ~itchy~ if i see key speak in english, i will seriously be reminded of his lizarre?! haha..

okay..thats it for today. if you guys are wondering where those sounds are coming from in my music player, i'll show you. ((: its seriously funny.Old videos but MUST WATCH!! ((: also the ep where youngie and chansung so cute! this is a must share. dnt undertand also must watch! ((:

okay..hope you had a happy time laughing! ((: Saranghae! ((;

Listening to music: i wanna wanna, i i wanna wanna...

2009-10-24T13:00:00.002+08:00

Mood: paiseh paiseh..-.-

lols..ystdy news was false alarm.i really thought it was like that! sorry producer!! sorry for bashing jyp too..bt the words for jay yesterday still counts. anyway, when i saw that jay was doing okay in seattle, i was relieved. But i still think he fits in with the members more. And I thank MAMA produce lots and lots!! the words he said really gave us hottests hope and happiness. We are eternally grateful to him and all MAMA staff if Jay really returned!

okay..stop abt news.. im into fanfics recently so if i often blog abt them im sorry.((:
i read a 2pm over flowers fanfic today. so cute.similar to boys over flowers just that its F5 instead of F4 and names have changed and ways of revenge too..AHH!! i love my jaebeom. He is sorta like lee minho in BOF. haha. okay..i gtg..wanna download software. bb ((:

Listening to music: Love like this! ((: guess whose song. hehe

2009-10-23T18:11:00.002+08:00

Mood: Angry

AHH!!! screaming damn loudly nw!! I though SM were the bad guys bt nw i knw! The true bad guy is JYP!! JAY!! $^@$^%&^%*^*&^(^&#$%@!!! How cud jyp do this to us Hottests?!! RAWR!!
This is absurd! 2PM are suffering from everywhere!! Hottests, JYP, Jay... I feel pity and sadness towards the remaining members of 2PM! I bet they are breaking down alrdy! With or without Jay, I will still support 2PM bt Jay knws that without him, 2PM could not go on!!

Jay, im nt going to tell you to take your time to think! You had a long time to think n its time for a decision!! To return and peace reigns or to leave forever and sufferings reigns? Care for ur brothers, hottests and ur family! jyp has gone too far and i want you to speak up! Return! I rather you and 2PM change company than continue staying at jyp's! Hottests are angry! well, i am! and i knw some other hundreds of people who is also unhappy, especially abt the recent news! Hottests' feelings have really been cheated this time! im outraged!

Okay thats the end of my venting of anger. Im gonna share some happy news though im still angry.Just for ur info.
My results + recap:
English: unexpected B3
Mathematics: cool A1
Science: astonishingly A2
Mother tongue: hard-to-believe B4
Geography: one word: Passed
History: expected A1
Okay thats the end. Rumour has it that i gt A2 for my literature bt when i knw the real results then i will disclose whether the rumour if true or false.
Nw, im going to dance. need to vent off some of my remaining anger which refused to leave! Being angry is tiring u knw! -.-

Listening to Music: niga mibda...

2009-10-22T20:57:00.002+08:00

Mood: Tired and emo

Argh..im so tired nwadays. i dnt knw why!! In school, i can be very high and happy bt once i reached home, my mood just drop! )): especially at night, i emo. )):

Okay, lets nt talk abt this. My results were unexpected.
MT: B4( for the first time in my life!) as you guys know, i either just pass or fail in mother tongue. (:
English: B3! ( It was a tough paper bt thank god my essay pulled me up!) hehe..((:
Geog: i dnt give a damn. Its confusing. Just one sentence: I PASSED. =D

I dnt knw the rest of the results yet..ahh!!i hate my tired self!News were both happy and sad news.)):

Jay oppa, please return! hottests really misses you and 2PM. Don't let 2PM suffer because of you! Kangin oppa, control your temper! stop disappointing E.L.F! Your fans are willing to give you another chance! Same to you Jay oppa. Both of you must overcome your ordeals! Don't disapooint your fans! Fighting! Shinee, you've grown! Continue your hard work. Shinee world will always support and love you! Saranghae Shinee, Super Junior, 2PM, and all kpop bands!

Okay, i gtg..tired again..)): ahh..wondering if im having an illness deep inside my body or wad.
:(
okay bb.

Listening to music: 4 years of hard work all gone in 4 days, nw we are waiting for our leader to get back on stage....